Scared

Yes, I am scared, but why?

Yesterday, I listened to a clip from Gary Vaynerchuk having an honest conversation about entrepreneurship. In the conversation, he gave an idea. That idea was to go document one’s journey for a year, give helpful tips and insight along the way, and go after a goal. The whole time I was listening to this, I was thinking about documenting my journey.

That is when after the podcast ended, I started the camera, and said that I would document my journey of becoming an entrepreneur.

That was yesterday, today is today. Since that time, I also watched a module by Grant Cardone of how to find a job in 72 hours. It was insightful and I learned key takeaways. Some of the biggest were to talk about revenue, sell myself, get to the decision maker, go to get a job, and close the deal, and if a deal is not closed, at least have them remember me. He really bogged down on the point of finding a job and even at one point, he brought up, “working for myself”. Now there are plenty of things that he bashed on before this, but the entrepreneur route was not completely bashed on. At least, I did not take it as such. He noted this is a common mindset, and that I did not do it at my last job, so what makes me think I will work at this new job of working for myself. He also mentioned how hard it is and that every day, I could essentially be unemployed and looking for work, how to keep the business(es) going.

I agree with a lot of this. However, I believe I will be fully self-employed. I am taking this route. The scary part is giving it a try. There is no better time than now.

My three niches that keep coming up are Fitness, Mindset, and Journey. When it comes to business, fitness is the main thing going for me right now. I am making about $400-500 off of clients doing individual virtual training about 2-3 times a week. I will need more, but writing this, I do believe it is a good start. I also need to get healthy. Like Devon Levesque said, if I am healthy, I can do anything!

Quite the collection of three people that are “along” for my journey. Then there is Judy Verses, who told me to make a one-year plan. I did – it is going well. She has told me a lot of other valuable ideas, methods, actions, for which I can write about many times over.

Thinking about this, I probably will not be able to publish this article because of all the names that I am mentioning.

A big part of this journey will be growing stronger with my family – I believe our relationship has to get stronger in the household. (this was a sidetracked note)

Back to business.

My journey will be that of bringing value to others. Keeping in touch, connecting. Exploring myself and what this world has to offer. Mindset keeps coming into play, but Wellness is written on my LinkedIn. I believe the two go together. And then there is Fitness.

So, for this article, I will dive into the fitness aspect of my journey to become a Fitness Entrepreneur.

It will start with taking care of myself. First and foremost. This means healthy eating, sleeping, and being, which will lead to becoming. No more eating out of the pantry. It was fun while it lasted, but I have great experience in this, and there is no need to continue to eat in this manner. I already tried it! Of course, today does not mark the last day that I will have sweets or way too many peanuts, but it should mark the last time to stress eating.

This may be easier said than done, but I am pretty sure that I got rid of the eating sugar out of the can, jar, package, whatever you want to call. Yikes, I really used to eat so much sugar, after pouring it into my tea. Safe to say, those days are behind me. So, maybe the days of eating peanut butter out of the jar, and chocolate chips out of the bag are not over, but they are dwindling. This is a great feeling. This is a healthy feeling.

I spoke about sleep in a previous article. What I did not talk about is that my phone will need sleep too. Right now, I am hovering around seven hours of screen time. That is way too much and more importantly, it seems like this screen time occurs just before bedtime. The ill-effects of blue light and what is being relayed to my mind right before dreaming is a detriment. To help with this, I will continue to read books that fascinate me and grab my attention. This is done so I can better fall asleep and be grateful/content.

This leads to the last part of this journey and that is of being, which ultimately means, should mean, and must mean, becoming.

The more knowledge and work I input and output, the more grateful and content I will be. I must become valuable. This is by no means selfish and this is a big part of me that must change. I must know my worth and bring it to the world. I must really sell it to the world. No one is going to buy in if I do not buy in to myself.

What this means is: I cannot be afraid of sharing my views. I cannot be afraid of sharing myself and opening. I cannot be afraid to feel compassion towards myself. I cannot be afraid to really compete and go after what I deserve. I cannot be afraid to say that I am wrong, or I did not know, or I need help. I cannot be afraid of failure, work, effort. Even if I think that I am not afraid, I cannot be afraid of knowing that I probably am afraid and being afraid. I cannot be afraid of being scared. This is the journey. Every single day. It. Is.