When Will It Be Enough? When Will You Choose You?

“There’s a woman reading this now, a woman who has tried her hardest to hold on to a relationship that is no longer worthy of her grip. that woman is tired of loving someone who refuses to love her back. there’s a woman reading this now that needs to be reminded of how strong she’s always been. that woman is possibly you and I believe that you are strong enough to move on with your life. this is a sign, this was written for you." -r.h. Sin

Sometimes love finds us and it makes us fall in love with people that we are never meant to be with…people that will never choose us. People that we will always love a hundred times more than they will.

The endless what ifs. The if onlys. The ones that never seem to align no matter how much we try.

You’re into someone in a way that they will never be into you. You’re on a different page. A different level. You see them in a way that they will never see you. You want something that they will never want. Something that they will never be able to give you. You know the reality, but it doesn’t make it any easier. And for some reason you just can’t walk away.

It seems so simple and so easy. Yet, it all seems so complicated at the same time. You can’t understand why they can’t just love you back. Why they can’t just choose you. It breaks your heart because you know that you can treat them better than anyone else, that’s all you want to do. You just want to give them the world and show them what they deserve. You just want them to be able to love you like you love them.

You just want to be their everything yet you’re their nothing.

You just want for them to finally see you instead of see through you. You just want them to treat you how you treat them. As a priority and not an option. And you can't come to terms and understand that the person you want most, the person you love isn’t right for you. To accept that this person that seems so perfect to you isn’t right for you.

To accept that you’re not perfect to the person who is perfect to you. And that it has nothing to do with you.

That they’ll never be able to give you what you need. What you deserve. And that nothing you can do or say will change that. You can’t force someone to be what you want if that isn’t what they want. Just because you want or love someone doesn’t mean that they are right for you.

“Just because you love someone doesn’t mean you’re supposed to be with them." -r.h. Sin

You’re convinced that you guys are meant to be, but it’s all in your head. And you know that, but there’s still that little spark of hope that lives in the back of your mind that you hold onto. But, you can’t hold onto it forever. You can’t keep wishing for someone that will always be out of your reach, wishing for something that won’t ever be something. You deserve more than someone that you have to wait for, someone that won’t choose you when you choose them. Someone that love you as much as you love them. You aren’t ever going to find the person right for you if you’re hung up on the one wrong for you. You have unrealistic hopes and expectations that you have to let go of. That you have to see through.

“What is there to love about a person who doesn’t love you. how are you in love with someone who hasn’t provided anything for you to love." -r.h. Sin

You’re holding onto someone who isn't even pulling. You’re waiting for someone who’s not waiting for you. You’re hung up on someone that doesn’t even notice you.

You allowed them to do things that they shouldn’t because of the way you feel about them. You justify it by your feelings which is never justification. You put up with treatment that you shouldn’t because for you they are the only thing that matters. You’ve forgotten that you matter. That you come first. And that you should always be able to walk away if you’re being treated less than you deserve. Leave and let their actions show you if your presence actually mattered to them. You define what you deserve.

You will always want them more than they will want you. You deserve so much more than settling for someone who only wants you half as much as you want them. I will you could see that.

He doesn’t think you’ll walk away because you haven’t yet. He knows that you’ll stay no matter what because you love him and you think that your love should be stronger than the shit he puts you through. He has you wrapped around his finger because your threats are empty. You’ve lost yourself in him. He doesn’t need to commit to you because he already has you. But, your love for someone else should never be more than your love for yourself.

“Loving someone doesn’t make them deserve you." -r.h. Sin

You’ve sacrificed what you wanted for someone that didn’t want you. You’ve settled for less than you deserve because of someone that couldn’t live up to your expectations. You’ve forgotten what you deserve. Your self-worth. Your self-value. Your self-respect. You’re allowing yourself to be disrespected by allowing someone else that kind of power over you. Power that no one should ever have. Control that no one should ever have over your life or mood. You’ve forgotten how to be a priority, how to act like one. You’ve allowed yourself to be treated as less than because you’re afraid of walking away, letting them go. You’re afraid that you won’t ever find someone else and that if you let them go you won’t find anyone else better. But, trust me you will. You’ve forgotten that your world and mood should never be dependent on someone else. That you don’t need anyone except yourself. That no one is worth waiting for because if someone makes you wait they aren’t worth your time. If someone won’t commit to you, they don’t deserve you.

“The love you deserve can’t be found while holding on to someone who doesn’t deserve you." -r.h. Sin

You teach others how to love you by how much you love yourself. Love those who show you with their actions and not just their words.

Anyone that expects relationship benefits but refuses to commit to you is abusing you. When will you recognize it for what it is. Will you take back the power back that you’ve given away. When will it be enough. You’re allowing them to take advantage of you by allowing them to treat you as less than you deserve. By being afraid to walk away. By not walking away...

Understand that if they don’t want a relationship now it doesn’t mean that they will want one later. And most of the time, it really means they just don’t necessarily want one with you. Because when people meet someone they think is worth it, they don’t hesitant to be with that person. Trying to get someone to commit to you that doesn’t want to will lead to a road of resentment and cheating. They’ll never be able to give you what you need. What you deserve. Because someone that doesn’t see your value know, someone that doesn’t think you’re good enough for them won’t treat you any different. Refusal to commit is basically someone saying that they don’t think you’re worth giving up being single for. That’s the truth. Find someone who would rather be with you than be single.

“You’ve become so used to having him in your life and the thought of anything different just scares you. you don’t want to start over you’ve invested so much time and energy into him as well as the relationship but you deserve more." -r.h Sin

The people that we often think we need in our lives, the ones we can’t “live without” aren’t the people we actually need. You should never have to sacrifice your self-worth, self-value, or self-love in order to win, keep, or love someone else. Because someone that truly deserves you and loves you will never make you give up those things or feel that way.

Often, the people that seem so perfect to us are the very ones that end up poisoning us.

You’re wasting too much time and effort on someone that isn’t worth it. If they were worth it, if they were worth you; they would choose you. They would see you. They wouldn’t play games and they wouldn’t make you wait. They wouldn’t make you question things. They wouldn’t treat you as an option.

You want everything from someone who won't give you anything.

It’s extremely hard to let go of someone that seemed so perfect and right. Someone that you were crazy in love with even when their love for you was in question. Someone that taught you what you were capable of and how to love without even knowing it. Someone who redefined the word for you. Someone that you’ve wanted more than anyone else. Someone you got attached to. Someone that means the world to you. Someone you still love.

It’s hard to let go of the one that you always wanted that never wanted you in the way you wanted them.

But, you have to draw the line. You have to love yourself enough to not let yourself lose yourself. You have to stop the cycle. You have to let them go. You have to put yourself first. Just because you think they deserve you doesn’t mean they deserve you. You have to walk away for you. This is about you. The biggest blessings in life are the things that often the things that seemed like the biggest disappointments. So tell me, when will it be enough. When will you finally walk away from what you don’t deserve and walk towards what you do deserve.

When will you stop fighting for them and start fighting for you? When will you choose you?