Reality of love

I have spent years watching love stories fantasizing on how I would meet my future husband, if it would be like the movies, if my heart will jump out my chest and the world would just feel still around our love, but reality strikes and it becomes more of a trail and error never really getting what you wanted. In this day and age love is pretty non existent men, just want to have fun and women fall into their self-absorbed hole not really knowing their worth, thinking that this is all they deserve or all the love they can get and so they settle. We are sold on the fairy-tale, but we are gullible enough to fall into the trap, hoping for more but never finding it because in many ways we prevent it. A lot of us say we want the good guy, that we want to laugh, but we want to feel safe and then we do the complete opposite because our attractions what we really most desire is passion and passion we typically find in the complete wrong guy, the type of guy that gives you excitement that gives you danger but always turns out to be a disappointment. This is because once in a girls life there is always a disappointing transaction or a moment that puts her self esteem a step lower and because of that small moment we begin to think we are not good enough or we don’t deserve a good person because once again we are not good enough, but the key is loving our self-first. How to do that well that’s still a question I’m trying to find the answer too how are we supposed to love all our scars and all our flaws to be able to love someone else, when you look deep into it is worth it just for love? will love truly give us the perfect happiness we see in the movies? or is this just what we tell ourselves to get through. Every moment in life is a mild stone is a step forward to us being able to figure life out itself but never truly understanding the message that is given to us, but we are told having a career finding love, starting a family, is the key to happiness but what is all of that without truly loving yourself everything always leads back to you. So you have to accept your scars try and love everything about yourself to the wrinkles under your eyes, to the stretch marks you have on your body, to your insane thoughts everything about yourself and then only then will the possibility of true happiness knock at your door. Maybe just maybe the knight in shinning armour you always dreamed of may knock at your door, because you may finally be open to love true love the type of love that has flaws but the flaws you love.