Lost in your self-translations

Addressing the reflections

The human mind is covert and thus the complexities are never fully translated by oneself. We often venture into the beyond seeking to know of one another, yet ourselves we leave at one corner or page of a book. Usually, reasoning for the behaviour that displays this mechanism, is the fear of addressing the reflections we create within our minds; the life and reality it holds once unfold. Yet a person who has taken control of their own mind, in full extent and earnest behaviour, is a person who cannot be broken. To seize ones’ identity is the very quest of us all, and self-acceptance takes a large hold over the conclusions to these translations that float in the vast oceans of our minds.

Some, in reflection and courage of self-acceptance are calm with reserved motion at the surface. Yet rest assured, that regardless of the depths within the womb of our minds, we never get torn away to act accordingly to who we are, despite the mighty currents which brew below. Others however, have not even begun to openly swim and accept the creative works that convect in their origins. Therefore, you could say for those of us- are very much lost on the seas they endure and are about to venture. We cannot begin to navigate the roads that we wish to journey. But alas, in hope of who we are, we rest in awe of the horizons; endlessly seeking out methods of alignment to the trails of thoughts.

Navigation in the Universe: You

I have often used the metaphor of the universe in accordance to the inner workings and secrets of the human mind-as in essence they are derived of the same matter. We (the universe and you) both create in spurs of the moment, to bring about magnificent life and wonders. Yes, in terms of the level of life and the concept of wonders, they do level differently. BUT, this is where we make a connection of the interlinking greatness. This is where we begin to translate the actions that linger in fragments within the crevices and corners of our minds. Whenever for a moment you come to doubt the reflection you see, or the refractions and ripples of your actions, look bigger into the universe. For such fragments undoubtedly lead from one to another. A network of creation-with the same message. Your existence cannot be faulted for as you can see, the same network and pattern is mirrored in the great beyond. Such is, the example of how the earth is bound to the sun and moon. The winds and rains are bound to earth and soil. Life really is a circle bound to a larger range of interworking beautiful chaos.

Then there is you. You are the formula of all these elements combined into moving momentum of the live circuit that weaves and orbits the universe herself. For one day, you did indeed substitute yourself perhaps into the makings and components of the great Orion Nebula, overlooking floating dark lost matter, providing beautiful respite and peace for the dark matter awaiting light within voids of darkness. And on other days you sit in the corners of your room, addressing who you are, what you are and where you are going.

Despite how lost your feel within this present moment, you have come so far for the now that you currently exist within. Sometimes translating the beautiful chaos within your mind is not particularly easy but hey, can you translate the universe and all that flows within her? The answer is of course no. Most admire her meticulous workings and let it be. So, that is what you need to do. Forget the constant self-assessments, the constant scrutiny. Your path may not be clear but the harder you press, the harder you may steer yourself in circles on seas- with an increased likelihood of you breaking and thus drown at mighty depths of seas.

I want to translate the extent of my mind,

Without having to cave in and collapse within it.

I want to hold onto the fragments that derive me,

without cutting my hands on its loose shards.

I want to own me

-completely.

In vulnerability and majestic forms.

As one whole entity,

mirrored to the whole sanctity of origins.

In honour of the beyond

-the mighty universe.

Fatima Elmusbahi

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