Somewhere down the line, home became more than a physical address to me;
It became a feeling, a smell, a state of mind, an internal piece of peace.
A silent whisper, a faint smile, even a distant memory.
Home is a place where I am not trapped by my surroundings but free to soar throughout the world with no anchors in site.
I find home in the clouds, as I embrace those who have moved on from this life watching over me and guiding my steps.
I find home in the hope that can be passed to one of my fosters in need of love.
I extend home as I move through life with compassion and an understanding that in times of pain and chaos, I can be a light.
I find that home dwells where there is a sense of safety present.
Feeling safe to feel, to be, to see, to love.
Home is where I find myself again.
After daily battles with what this life has to offer, I find my way back to who I am at my core,
and find warmth in remembering who I am to me and the world around me.
I find that I am home to so many in my path.
I walk through this Earth creating homes with my words, with my touch, my gaze, my sight, and with my work.
I build homes with broken hands and a tainted heart, but the most beautiful you could ever dream of.
Because these hands build from a memory.
A memory of what was longed for long ago.
The home I longed for was warm.
The home I longed for was kind.
The home I longed for was loving.
The home I longed for was forgiving.
The home I longed for encouraged me.
The home I longed for protected me.
The home I longed for provided for me.
The home I longed for supported me.
The home I longed for defended me.
The home I longed for saw me.
The home I longed for knew me.
The home I longed for was me.
The place I so desperately needed as a child was being molded inside me from all that I lacked.
Once I found it, once I felt it, I knew I had to share it.
For, my home is not a home, if it is closed off to others.
So I build. As I work on myself and find new ways to connect with my inner child, I build.
As I forgive myself for past mistakes, I build.
As I cast aside my ego to be present in times of discomfort, I build.
As I extend myself to be of service, even when I don’t want to, I build.
As I learn to advocate for my wants and needs without feeling guilty, I build.
Brick by brick, piece by piece, I continue to build until all I have left is what is leftover.
I extend a sense of home out of the overflow that I have built within myself.
I wasn't longing for a home, so that I can shutter myself from the world.
I was longing for a home, so I had a place to feel prepared for the world.
In all that I was searching for, after all that life had to instill,
I never knew that the home I longed for as a child, was my responsibility to build.
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