He broke my heart

by Diana about a month ago in breakups

Thought I was good it

He broke my heart

Our first date night was supposed to be at a cafe. He called it an eclectic cafe spot. Knew from his texts he was going to be a cool date. He was going to meet me on a Friday night when he usually spends it with coworkers after going out to bars or anything they come up with. He decided to go with me What a a lucky girl I thought. My knees bucked up and I was shaking all over he could sense and visibly see me. I was super nervous and excited though. Our spontaneous date didn’t quite work out I had work the next day super early. So we postponed, I made sure he still set a date to meet! I didn’t want to miss my shot at meeting him. We ended up meeting on a Monday I believe it was one of the days I had off. I got their early and looked nervously through the window, he texted me saying he had gotten a table for us. I saw him and I was In shock he was so much more handsome than his profile picture. I said hi then ran to restroom in this small pretty story book cafe spot. He made me feel comfortable and helped order food. Once I calmed down we had such a great conversation I didn’t think I could have with someone let alone of the opposite sex. He was like a Dream sure he said some weird things at some points but I ignored them. He looked at me with loving eyes I don’t think anyone has ever made me feel that way. He was a major flirt and I tried my best to flirt. By fitting I grabbed his hot tea and dipped in a sexy way kind of cringe worthy. He didn’t mind or a least mention that I was weird. Made me feel wanted and loved. I was in a ruff spot in my life at the time, thought I needed to have everything figured out being in my late twenties. He was my first date ever. He kind of spoke life into me, if that makes sense. We spoke through texts after this great date I swear it was like eating the best chocolate cake with tons of sparkly sprinkles. He said he wanted to continue seeing me. I was over the moon excited. He was going to go on a trip to Japan and said he’d bring me something back! I was excited he even sent greetings from Japan in a form of a photo. I waited to text him till he came back. Finally after a while he set a date for our second date to a concert. He picked me up from my house he mentioned he didn’t really want to come because he was having such a good time at a baby shower. I felt a little bad about myself but I didn’t say anything. I wanted to go out I didn’t have any other plans I probably should of stepped out of the car. We went on about our date he took me to eat first. He talked a lot and was kinda judgmental of others surrounding us. But I was so in love with him even the way he walked made me like him he moved like he was dancing. We went to the show and spoke a little had alcohol which I don’t really drink. He was nice about it. He held my hand to guided me through the crowd I felt like such a boss babe I almost died. He mentioned he needed gas and I said let’s! While he was putting gas it started to sprinkle out. I was in the car as I made eye contact with him he opened the passenger door and sat down. I felt his chubby back side. He said to me, I want to connect can I kiss you and I said yes. I had mentioned earlier to him that I had not ever had a boyfriend and that he was my first date ever. It was a simple peck on the lips it was perfect. Then he got back in the drivers side and with an excited smile said if he could kiss me again and I said yes this time it was sloppy and he said ,“was it weird” I said no even though it was. I felt so good to feel loved and liked! As we were driving on the freeway he asked me if he could hold my hand and I said yes! He was the best hand holder! As we were close to my place he said I want to kiss you! And I said let’s find a good spot and we made out. I cried as he gave me all the types of kisses there were. I mean name them French kiss butterfly kiss. It was better than the movies! He was laughing I was laughing. It was like two in the morning when our date ended. He mentioned he wanted to see me again and of course I said yes. We texted the next few days. As I was getting ready to go out I checked his location and he was in Vegas! I lost it, I cried and felt my body get hot. I texted him and asked him where he was at and he said working, he had lied to me. My feelings for him had left. I was devastated, he didn’t know I knew. Days passed I mentioned to him we should go to beach he agreed. We were texting and I told him if he liked me and we were agreeing on starting a relationship! I was crying and excited. He wanted to meet to celebrate it was pretty late at night maybe close to midnight. We went to the beach, we had a great time I had feelings for him all over again. He was polite and a gentleman. He even twirled me around. We had a good times together. We made out again. We parted ways. We texted the next few days then out of nowhere he saids he doesn’t think it’ll last. I was crying through this whole process of him dumping me and all the reasons why it wouldn’t work out and how he wanted to just be friends. We’ve texted for a while but I knew he’d break my heart and hurt me. I knew I couldn’t be friends with him. Then came a day when he no longer replied to my texts. I’m trying not to lose hope, still waiting for prince charming to come who ever that may be! Tips would help or advice! Much love.

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