Ayudame

I sit in the car today awaiting my daughter laying here with a mask on my face Lysol wipes is ready to go windows got to be rolled down so she don’t get contracted with anything. Now that’s the last thing I want for her. She really needed a ride to her doctors appt.pretty important appt. and she just split with her boyfriend. Needless to say I couldn’t say no I’m staying in the car I’m not going anywhere. It’s toward the end of the Covid sickness but I take precautions just in case. As I sit here writing this my mind can’t help but constantly go over the stresses of moving. All these questions I keep asking myself over and over. Like am I still going to have this Covid when I go to this other state. I get tested tomorrow if I come up positive I can’t move yet. What the hell am I gonna do after this week. I did not plan on catching the Covid. So three more days is our last day here. I can’t have that peace of mind until two days from now geez Louise. Am I going to have enough money? I couldn’t work the last two weeks because of Covid. I intended to have enough for my trip over there and at least have some extra cash to start my new life. I have a Couple side hustles going for me as far as money. So I am grateful I at least have them, while I wait for my massage license to come and I can start working again. Between this pandemic my son and I getting sick I could use a little help. I didn’t want to ask anybody for any help, but this is the time I really need to. My grandmother always told me one day Mija you will need help everybody needs help I never believed her, but given these past four years my God have I had to ask for help so many times in more ways than one. I never take anything for granted and I appreciate any help that I do get just those last two weeks really put me behind, and I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to start a new life anywhere else I mean I don’t Have a place to live in this state after this week. So with test results awaiting and not being able to work, and feeling like caca I think I’m handling it pretty good, I try to stay optimistic about everything but everybody has their cracking point you know. I don’t want to hit that point. I’ve been drawing and writing a lot I’ve just been very inspired, and well just got bit by the creative bug for some reason, I guess it was an adverse effect of the Covid. Anything to keep my mind off of it , but I just don’t know what to do anymore. I mean so far everything that I needed for me and my sons quarantine has come to us when I didn’t have enough money for everything that we needed. It just came to us. I trusted God or the universe (for once) and it came, that’s why I haven’t really been too stressed, but I can’t help in the back of my mind I’m just going a little bat shit crazy. It’s cutting it a little close don’t you think. I shall continue to be positive and write stories of my life. I tried to write made up stories but my life stories just seemed way more interesting. So if you find them even a little enjoyable , Please feel free to help a sister out and Give me a like and gratuities are always appreciated. Everybody stay healthy love your life, appreciate all, never take anything for granted,our health is our wealth. I just wish that we can buy food and pay bills with our health.