7 Thoughts!!

👋🏾 There,

I am sure we have room to argue that this March-May is the most popular, most active, most social part of a calendar year. At least here in most of America, These three months mark the beginning of warmer temperatures, which releases us from our hibernating state. COVID🦠19 however has decided to not just keep us in hibernation, but have forced us to make a life out of it. It is on mainly levels painful, with the remaining levels locked at extremely uncomfortable.

Most consider this concept we have come to know as Social Distancing to the great disrupter to ever hit planet earth. I would like to disagree with this, as I believe social distancing, and COVID🦠19 alike to be the dawn of a new day. Because of COVID we now know how much in our society was broken, and ignored. We have discovered how we can and should have been operating ages ago, but refused because nothing challenged the status quo. COVID has forever changed us, but for many veterans of the good ol system, this change won’t happen without a fight, one I will discuss later but for now I just have seven thoughts lingering in my mind as I look to this our new world.

I am sure its easy, at least now to recognize how many operate from a state of confusion. COVID🦠19 has forced a lot of us to face our wrong doings. An article I heard about stated at the moment more people are daily meditating then during the eras of 9-11, and both world wars combined. I know for me, i have recognized how much hate I have garnered over the years. I realized recently during a chat with a mentor, how many I despised. SHE THEN PROCLAIMED. It was because those deserve it. WRONG. No one deserves to be hated, No one deserves the visceral disgust i have found myself carrying. Reality is, we are all clueless, mortal explores begging for answers, which forces me to grant passes on the grounds of emotion incompetence. I keep telling myself I got to let it go, and them go; because most who I am looking at stupid, are stuck in their ways, ways they’ll die having. YES.. A lot of people are going to die poor, die at the bottom, most importantly die without ever living, and the only thing I can do about it, is make certain I am not one of them

I received a call recently from one who fell in the category I now call emotional incompetence. They mentioned how much they disliked me for various reasons, calling me a know it all, a stubborn neophyte who should sit down and shut up. Why? Because I came from a world they detested. I was the contrast to business as usual, the digital enemy to a determined analog society. I was then stupid, the pillar of annoyance, useless, a liability, but now I’m an asset, a voice of transition. I remember when the phone rang, I struggled to answer, thinking 🤔 WTF!! I don’t wanna talk to this 💩💩head; NONETHELESS I took the call, listened and at the end offered my help. Not because I am such a good guy, but because I want all to experience, to profit from the good things this world 🌍 has to offer, Which brought me to my second thought. I realized not everyone gets in the beginning, some won’t even realize until the very last second, but regardless when, accept them, treat them as if they’ve been on board all along.

You know what else COVID🦠19 has forced us to realize. How much those connected to us are important. I have never seen some many people checking on love ones in the home, calling on the phone. It is crazy how a crisis will cause us to care, OR maybe its this reality, MAYBE being so caught up in solving personal crisis’ has stripped any ounce of caring for others we could muster. I know I have forced myself to check on folks. I have forced myself to really make sure my chats are not just about what I want, but making sure I am available to those I cherish.

PERMISSION TO SPEAK FREELY? You haven’t heard or really seen me around a lot.. Even before COVID🦠19 I had found myself checking out. As a matter of fact, I was somewhat happy COVID🦠19 happened, ONLY because it gave me an excuse to not deal. I remember the first day we started heading into lockdown. I had a few meetings scheduled, Meeting I didn’t wish to have. I was tired of the fight, sick of the debate. I was done with trying to reason with folks who are determined to work me over to their point of view. It is crazy how one could leave a connection with folks you like feeling rejected, feeling stupid. BUT what was even more CRAZY!!?? I kept going back, I kept pushing only to get to a point of believing the universe just hated me. I started feeling like I was just destined to fail, Not recognizing this was just a part of the process. Change breeds rejection, pushback, controversy, and criticisms. THE MORE YA have, the MORE your doing RIGHT. It took me a minuet to learn it to except it.

Now I am THIRSTY!!! NO!! not for scantily clad women with daddy issues, nAw those problems are well taken care of thanks to my subscriptions to UMMMM 😳🤨... NEVER-MIND. I have found myself thirsty for new friends, new adventures, new ways of making bread 🍞💰, a new approach to content creating, which is why I am now going hard or TikTok, Byte, the podcast, and even with this blog to name a few. 930am M-F is my favorite time of the day. Its when I get to watch TRUE porn, straight from 11 Wall Street, New York.

So It is with this new found revelation, that I have decided to call it completely quits. Quitting the fights, and thoughts of same with and over folks who are gonna be who they gonna be. Quitting trying to fix problems I can’t, QUITTING making investments in people, places or things which don’t bring me value. RELATIONSHIPS are like the stock market. Some are great to have for a moment. BUY LOW watch em climb and then dump em, then others ya do same, but keep because not only do they bring you great returns stock wise, but they give you a percent more on what you have invested.

So as I prepare to leave you, my seventh and final thought is this, from this moment on, my I focus my attention, my innermost self on what I am, and what I born to be. UNTIL the next time we chat..

LATTERZ - EDB