Numb

Woke up feeling numb, high pitch sound and blurry vision was there for a couple of seconds but it faded away, the place where I was could have been anywhere truly! because I did not recognize it. Where was I? and what was I doing there? Feeling extremely tired I began to get up to take a look around and attempt to make sense of what was going on. Come on! I said to myself, please remember what you did last………..Oh no! then I felt a sudden chill all over my body.

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It was a cold night, colder than usual, I sat in my porch running my fingers through my necklace and looking at my golden cross. I drank my hot passion tea with lemon and sugar to help me relax as I felt uneasy the moment, I knew I would eventually have to go to bed. I've been having these dreams, this very realistic dreams that take me to a faraway place, a place I don’t recognize. I've been waking up in a different place after I fall sleep, it is a forest, cold and covered in fog where I fear the unknown with an overwhelming power of helplessness I try to explore but as I begin to walk I feel a presence behind me, I try not to turn around as I am consumed in fear but I get to the point where I can no longer hold it and I finally turn around, I have a feeling of death, of breathlessness but I cannot see what comes at me or what happens because it is all too fast it feels so real but I know I am dreaming. I no longer breathe, I no longer live but I am aware, I am still conscious. I open my eyes and I am in bed but I cannot move my body, I am screaming inside me but I cannot say a word, I have no control over any of my limbs, I cry in my head again, I feel the presence, I feel it staring at me and it smiles, it slowly smiles. I can feel it closer, almost sensing its breath on my cheeks as I feel I am going to pass out I can move! I am moving and I jump! I jump up from my bed and there is nothing there.

Every night is the same dream, this forest, this cold forest where I encounter my worst fear, I will not be able to get past this unless I face it. Face my fear in the forest. I tell myself to do so, again and again all day until now the night is finally approaching, and I know I am going to have to do it. Stop shaking! you can do this, cannot be avoided anyways.

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This is a dream, this is a dream I tell myself. But yet this isn't a dream! Help! this isn't a dream Oh My GOD this isn't a dream! I am really here! I am here this time but HOW? WHY? how could this be? It is impossible right? it couldn't be could it? I don’t understand I feel so confused I am so numb.

I begin walking slowly, my legs are shaking I don’t want to face what’s next I am crazy to have wanted that! I know what happens after that, I don’t want to die! please don’t let me die! not yet I am not ready PLEASE!!!

I hear something far, footsteps in the leaves perhaps? My heart skips a beat or two. it's getting closer oh no! I hear breathing, its breathing! Oh MY! It is here, its close its behind me its time, time I face it, face the unknown, I turn around and see trees, leaves in the fog. I hear a sound and look up to see an owl! big bright eyes staring at me. The night is approaching and its harder to see. I turn to keep walking and OH!...........

GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAACE Grace! GRACE! look into my eyes, she said with a half-smile in her pale face! It was an old woman with bright grey eyes, long white hair in a long white dress. She said it again now grabbing my shoulders with sharp nails cutting into my skin.

I found you dear, I got ya! Noooooo no you don’t! I smiled back at her, it was a satisfying seeing her half smile disappear as her face was filled with amazement. I said I am not scared, I DO NOT FEAR YOU! I grabbed her hands and removed them from my shoulders...I said I was not afraid of you! She smiled again, this time bigger and said.. but oh... you should dear...she let out a scream that got to my bones, her jaw dislocating to the ground her fingers getting longer to grab me. I remember my faith, I grabbed my cross and said a word of belief and threw it inside her mouth! I heard another scream but this time louder than ever it was horrifying to hear but I believed in me, I believed in his power, I was in the shadow of death and feared no evil because he was beside me. I felt another hand in my shoulder and I looked to the side, a bright light consumed me, it was all around me! I turned to see the evil and the light was inside her, within her and it destroyed her in a thousand pieces. Fear and doubt were dead, she was dead! and I passed out, felt to the ground and hit my head in a rock.

I woke up in my bed, there was something different I was able to move my body, unlike the past few nights I was able to move, not paralyzed anymore I jumped out of bed in excitement, I had faced the enemy! but...hold on something wasn’t quite right I had some pain, in my head, I touched it and felt a bump, saw my hand and it had a blood stain in it. My heart stopped, He is watching over me, the unknown is not to be feared for he will be by my side.

The end.