I Have Sleep Paralysis Everyday

No, I'm not haunted

I Have Sleep Paralysis Everyday
Photo by Stefano Pollio on Unsplash

I don't believe in ghosts nor do I believe I'm haunted. However, I am curious if the things I see and hear during my sleep paralysis mean anything.

My name is Jakayla and I'm a normal girl with no history or connection to ghost whatsoever. However, I'm a big horror geek and I constantly write about horror. My sleep paralysis helps inspire some of my stories and novels so there's a perk.

The first time I've ever had sleep paralysis was at 17. I was living in Egypt at the time and needed a nap after a long day of studies. I decided to crash in the living room. As I was drifting off into my nap, my body locked instantly. Mind you this had never happened to me before. My body locked and I couldn't move yet I could see my living room. Upon realizing that I could see, I saw the black, dark, burnt arm stretching across me as clear as day. It was long and skinny. I closed my eyes right away cause I felt like something bad was there and if I looked at it would kill me right there.

It lasted a long time and I remember having to tell my eyes not to look because I couldn't control it. It opened on its own it seemed.

About a minute later, I could move again. I quickly looked around and felt my body. I started shaking, feeling like whatever I saw was around me. Of course I felt like this cause it had never happened so I was scared out of my wits.

I told my sister and looked up things about sleep paralysis. After seeing what sleep paralysis was, I took what I saw off the Wikipedia: "Sleep paralysis is a state, during waking up or falling asleep, in which a person is aware but unable to move or speak. During an episode, one may hallucinate (hear, feel, or see things that are not there), which often results in fear. Episodes generally last less than a couple of minutes."

To me, I found it to be creepier than that but took the scientific meaning to not scare myself.

Anyways, since that day I would have them before every nap and any kind of sleep. The first few months caused my insomnia and a little depression because I was starting to feel scared before bed. I dreaded the nights.

From then on, I saw the same burned arm but then I started to see the legs, back of the head, back, etc. Through all of this up until 2020 I was never able to see a face, just the burnt figure.

Since 2019, It calmed down and I no longer have them on a daily basis. Maybe because I improved my sleeping patterns or work drained me to death. I do get them very often.

As time goes by, they become more verbal. Once someone in an echo-ish whisper kept telling me to open my eyes. It wouldn't stop. Time to time I usually hear, "wake up," "open your eyes," and weird things like, "where are your eyes" repeatedly.

I've never been harmed during one of these episodes so I stay calm and let it go. Sometimes they last longer than a minute and usually I'll have a panic attack right after the longer ones. Otherwise, I don't worry too much.

I still have yet to see my sleep paralysis "demon's" face. As of now I don't feel like I'll ever see a face at this point. If I do, I'll make sure to keep you updated. My question to anyone reading this, do you have them on an everyday basis? Is that normal?

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Jakayla Toney
Jakayla Toney
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Jakayla Toney

A creative artist managing an anxiety disorder. Photographer and Author living in the NYC/NJ area.

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