Anticipating The outcome of a very serious situation causes my heart to become heavy. I become vulnerable to negative thoughts which in turn give out negative energies. growing up I remember being taught that the laws of attraction was defined by the false reality that opposite attract and become drawn to each other, but as I grew and developed understanding of the general principles of this so called “law,” I realized with knowledge and wisdom that this is not true. in fact it is not opposite but like energies that attract each other. Now that I possess such an understanding you would think I would use it to my advantage and remain in a positive element which only positive stimulus of all types could find a route into my life. this has been proven true in many areas of my being, however I have not yet Fulfilled my ultimate desires, even as they are set in a positive perspective of myself and my inner and outer worlds.
I have concluded that somewhere in the mist of my understanding, there lives feelings of doubt and uncertainty. whether that be doubt of myself and my capabilities, or doubt of those I surround myself with, or worse doubt of the power of the Almighty Lord in whom I take refuge in, it continues to have a negative impact on my journey through time, this time. Whatever the reason our placement may be, all I know is it is responsible for the delay in advancement in which I cannot afford to offer because it has become too precious to just watch pass by. I know the past cannot be changed so I try hard to not dwell within prior decisions and outcomes of decisions that have came and went already. If I keep gathering regret than it soon begins to weigh my soul down, allowing the imprisonment of me as a spiritual being to be held Captive within the prison of my own mind.
There are massive sorrows That have come with the separation of my family and have caused many problems, but it is the feelings of guilt for being Unable to partake in my daughters upbringing that truly saddens me. Some issues are then blown up because I feel helpless and I need to remember that they are not so big, remarkably they are so much less than they appear to be, for these issues are so petty that they could have at one time passed for non existent. One of My biggest fears however ,would be, through the actual law of attraction, entrapping those nearest and dearest to me to stand with me in time of the nothingness I’ve created and accepted as my reality.
As selfish as this may seem, I continue to reside in this element and my depression worsens with each passing day, while I am reminded of the time that continues to be stolen from me and in which can not be made up for. So forgive me for longing for the retreat of the loneliness i have recently become acquainted with. I guess that’s why they say misery loves company. I wrote a poem about this 2 years ago, when it’s presents was at a peak in my life, that describes this sadness, as follows,
Why is it that I dwell in uncertainty?,
and all that keeps going depends
upon me
physical strength has nearly faded
And amongst all I have debated
while seeking understanding from
them
myself as well,
as to why I continue to reside in a
self made hell
Confusion grows roots deeper
Cracking walls within my soul
while the barriers get thicker around
an empty hole
and I know not
for Which i am to align,
and therefore destruction is
A new acquaintance of mine
If I had to define the term testimony I guess I will call a collection of personal significant experience in which resulted in spiritual growth, well moving forward unto the higher perception of self identity that is aligned with the will that the Lord has for my life. testimony, however can also be a powerful tool in which is to be used to Save lives and inspire others to continue to strive forward to the happiness that awaits all who believe. This also allows them to become aware of the works of faith and hope, that exists everywhere, in everything, and everyone that also exists.
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Cps is negatively affecting families nation wide , as they seek to detain children sometimes for reasons that should not be deemed credible. There is no reason for workers to exercise such extreme measures upon families who genuinely love their children. They have no accountability to any agency or higher level of government and some of the workers are not even qualified to make such important decisions, sometimes lacking both education and experience. I think it should be a requirement for workers to pass some form of training program before being thrown into the field.Family preservation is said to be their main focuses in dependency cases however with no specific persons or agencies overseeing them, this sometimes is not the case. During the course of the investigation and even during family reunification workers put together reports for the judge that also state their recommendation, the context of these reports have a great influence in the judges decision in the families case. Not often enough is anything on their report verified by a third party. As a result the workers claims in their reports are assumed to be true and used to hold parents and guardians accountable for allegations, sometimes even despite their being no physical evidence what so ever. This is being allowed because the department of children and family services have their dependency hearings in their own court house rather than the superior court in the county’s in which they operate. When parents feel they are being treated unfairly or wish to refute any of the allegations they are being accused of, their is no third party in which the parents can seek assistance or in which they can file a complaint against the department without feeling that they may then be victimized in a attempt to retaliate. The cost in most situations is not an item of material value but rather their flesh and blood, their children. In the United States parental rights are considered to be a fundamental right, one that is protected by the constitution of this great country. Cps being as independent as they are, with no accountability for their actions from an overseer, sometimes both intentionally and unintentionally abuse this power. The trauma that this causes not only the family involved but society as a whole is enormous beyond a doubt as it leave entire families distraught and children are faced with life long emotional and mental disorders that sometime never go away. As a result, many people affected are burden with trauma related depression, attachment, trust , and anxiety disorders that affect their ability to be a well functioning member of society as a whole. “Breaking up the family’s unit is a threat to not only the family involved , but a menace to the very foundations of society itself” I propose that there be an agency created , in whom members are voted in by the people, to oversee the department of children and family’s services. Member of this third party agency are to give monthly public addresses to the people that follow up with any positive progress from the department and share ways in which the department helped families stay together. This agency will also have an agenda pertaining to follow up Curtsies via telephone, email, or in person visits to any and every client of the department and a survey should be completed during these follow ups. During this engagement the clients( parents) will Be asked general questions such as , the overall satisfaction rate from their experience with the social workers with the department, if the department is doing anything to help meet family’s goals , if their are any complaints about the departments actions or non actions, and any feedback on their behavior and engagement with the family unit. The agency’s should also review monthly reports prepared by the workers about each and every case they’ve are involved in and these reports should be verified by the third party to assure the accuracy of workers claims. There should also be an investigation following up on every complaint against the department and disciplinary action for any employee giving false testimony against a client. there should also be repercussions and consequences for the department as a whole with ever proven true investigation. The department and it’s social workers should be held accountable for any violation of the fundamental constitutional rights of a parent or guardian over their child. Forced Adoption , actually adoption in general, has Been proven to have more negative affects on both child and family ( both biological and adoptive) that it should be the last resort yet a lot of the times it is instead put first over family’s preservation. A broken home is then grown into a broken society. We must do all we can do to assure that the departments of children and family service are practicing within their own said claims of operation, and they are focused on preserving the family first and foremost and only leaning toward adoption when it is absolutely necessary.
By Jennifer church3 years ago in Families
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