Done but not really out of the woods.

Goodbye Paycheck to Paycheck Life!

Done but not really out of the woods.

It has finally happened, folks! I’m no longer living the paycheck to paycheck life.

However, I didn’t make it out of it because I kept saving money like I’ve been trying to. I’m only out of it in a more unfortunate way.

Recently, my grandmother passed away and I had to fly back home for her funeral. While I was there I was looking around my room to see what else I wanted to bring back. I ended up finding a few things that fell under the “I’m only keeping this because I felt obligated to” category, and they were all from the very same grandmother.

She was the one who got me a lot of my monkey possessions because I was born in the year of the monkey. And it hit me even more that this was all I was going to have to remember her by (as well as some jewelry she left for everyone to split between). All of a sudden I had a lot of possessions under “I got to keep this for Grandma”.

It wasn’t until my last night that my mom asked to see me for a moment. I thought it was going to be something about my relationship and her advice on how I shouldn’t rush it no matter what the health conditions of anyone in our family becomes whether it’s due to old age or not. (She had been making this sort of comment during my entire visit.) But it turned out she was revealing a red envelope to me in secret since it was only for me and not my siblings or cousins.

“We found some money that grandma left for you. While we were going through her things we found some scraps and your aunt, uncles and I also pitched in more. You see? It’s not just Mom and Dad worried about you, okay? We all are.”

At first I was ready to roll my eyes and say something like, “I’m poor yes, but that doesn’t mean I need your pity money. I’m okay and floating.” But I know that every time my parents offer money, it comes from their hearts; it’s because they care and genuinely worry. I know if I had a kid at my current age and I hear he or she is living the paycheck life, I’d want to help too.

But nope, that response left me and I teared up a little. This truly was the very last gift my grandmother got me and I wished it was more out of love than from worry. I’m trying to not feel regret over it and be determined to ensure this won’t happen again. I’m not going to let anyone’s last gift to me be one of worry.

I may be done with the paycheck-to-paycheck life, but I’m not exactly out of the woods because, on a happier note, my cousin got engaged and decided to pick a wedding location across the ocean, across the world. I technically now have enough for the round-trip tickets but that’s pretty much it. I still need the funds for the hotel stay, food, transportation, the activities, etc. Also, I need to make sure that my bank account will be fine after the wedding when I get back. Rent would be due soon after! So… I’m going to pretend that I’m not [out of the woods] and will continue to save just as much as I was before because otherwise I’m just going to fall back into the paycheck-to-paycheck life.

My minimalist life is a work in progress. I’m still trying to save money to be closer to the lifestyle that I want to live. I’m going to do my best to not make my family and relatives worry about me. I’m valuing what I got, what I still have. Coronavirus may be at large right now, but I personally believe it is at its peaking point and 2020 can only get better from here.

Let’s make some dough, guys!

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Bernadette Hsu
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