Memories: 22 May 2023

22 May 2023

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A beautiful day. I spent it washing down all the dust in my bedroom. Urggghh. Then stripped my bed and washed the bed linen. I put the electric blanket back on my bed. The nights are quite cool now.

Then I walked Charley and Beauregard. We visited Rosie the Labrador who was as usual ecstatic to have our company.

Then when we got home I put a roast chicken with potatoes and a ton of apricots, two carrots and a parsnip and a frozen banana into the oven to roast.

While that was cooking I got stuck into soldering my Opal Bezel (soldering on prongs!) it failed miserably but intrepidly I went right back in and the second time…success. Three more prongs to solder on. Be still my heart. But I know I can do it if I am patient and persevere!

I sat down to a delicious dinner. Froze down half of it and kept a quarter chicken in the fridge for tomorrow night’s dinner.

Life is good!

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I managed to solder two prongs. Two more to go. I had trouble with the third one. I worked hard on it but it kept failing.

Then I got an upstart stomach. Probably from the stress. I took a bath, sat and watched tv. Time to rest.

22 May 2021

22 May 2020

Busy but happy day! I have been Tetrising my clutter of collections for three days!

In the afternoon I had a lovely visit from Margot, Evie (who is four, not six as I had thought) and little Suzy who is three. We had a wonderful time!

Evie made me two pictures to take home (she insisted on it!). I am thoroughly spoiled by my tiny Artist friends!!!

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Socks is very contented. He has been in strange mood sulking outside for three days while I reorganised my space. I came home from Margot’s place in the freezing cold and dark and called Socks as he avoided the little girls by hiding somewhere. I freaked out that he might have gone AWOL.

So I came inside to cook my dinner and he arrived at the back door halfway through my cooking. I ate my meal then dragged Socks physically out of his boudoir as I put the heater on in the lounge. (Reverse cycle heaven! No clunky old oil heaters in the lounge anymore!)

Socks usually has a very quick cuddle then repairs back to his boudoir but he is enjoying the extra attention and the warmth! He really is a sweetheart! Knows his own mind!

22 May 2019

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1:11, 2:11, 4:11, 5:11, 6:11. The synchronicities are falling thick and fast. 11s all week. Hmmm. Another shift in my personal life again. Phew! All good. Riding the cosmic wave. Soon to be splashing in actual waves. Psy sighs! Happiness!

I saw my doctor. I told him about the stalking by the ex friend on Friday. He says we need to maintain firm boundaries and monitor and document everything and if it happens again I will have to report to the police.

I hope that will not be necessary as the police are easily manipulated by sociopaths. But my doctor says to tell them to call him so he can explain the situation.

So yeah... I have zero trust in the police who always demonised me for standing up for myself and were the willing henchmen of Buck and my narcopath mother with their salacious lies.

But this ex woman friend knows that is a huge trauma button to push as she instigated that last time, so I will not be playing to her sick tune. (The only way to win the game of a psychopath/narcopath/sociopath is NOT to play!). Firm boundaries indeed.

I shall continue in my daily expression of freedom and happiness and keep myself, my core family and pets and sacred space Safe.

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7:11, 8:11. Lmao. Netflix is not working even though I unplugged my modem and Fetch box 4 times. Grrr. Optus won’t answer the phone. Stan was down too, but it’s back. I will watch The Spanish Princess. Episode 3.

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22 May 2018

22 May 2017

I took Beauregard to the vet this morning to have his stitches out. They said they could not get the ones on his legs out as they were too close to the skin and told me that his sutures where he had his nuts chopped off would dissolve as well as the ones on his legs. What? Why did I have to bring him in if they were dissolving stitches?

Nuts. I think they just found him too aggressive. I got advice about the burn on his back. Need to cut fur off the site, wash it well twice a day then put aloe vera on it. Poor Bobo has been in the wars.

I am still crook too, with bronchitis and bad back. Off to the dentist at 1.30 pm to have root canal work completed which ironically I still get sensations of pain in. Not cool!

Anyway it is a beautiful day and we are surviving as usual.

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Well that was another ordeal. Dentist is going to leave the tooth with just a dressing until we find the source of the pain. Everything clear on X-ray. She pushed the wire cleaners right up to end of one root. Other one stopped halfway but merges with first one. Grrr!

I have another appt on 17 July. Heading home after dropping into Aldi for a few supplies. My back is killing me. We put dentist aprons under my back while she worked on my tooth. But it is still painful. I will be glad to get home and lie down with my Beau and the cats and Charlie the Cheeky Rainbow Body!

22 May 2016

4.43 am. In my bath! Soaking in milk powder and Epsom Salts as my feet are in so much pain and my legs ache and blah blah the Dancing Queen Crone person (I say… who was that marvellous woman? I say… Whattttttt?) has completed 2 nights of epic dancing which is the first time in several months but helps to alleviate my other heart-ache suffering.

I have shook, shimmied, stomped and shuffled that beast of burden into the bowels of Mordor! With a little help from my friends!

I must say! We are fabulous Darlings!! Now it will be a week of recovery. But it has been worth it.

My angels have my back. Faith Hope and charity. Laughter, dancing and joy. Enough love to implode another universe somewhere from a tiny mustard seed.

Happiness. Can't hold it for long so must enjoy it while it is visiting. It seems to visit more often these days. When it leaves the world is devastatingly bleak but I know how to sneak it in behind the wizard's curtains.

Only smoke and mirrors Baby but the laughter albeit maniacal is sublime.

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Feeling exhausted. But glad I had a great week last week. One of the nicest weeks I have had.

Only one major disappointment yesterday and that was my fault for contacting my beloved, who is clearly not into me. (Blech!!!) Oh well the Angel story had to be shared. I am still processing running into that amazing tattooed man and his wife. The Tree of Life.

Pity I hang between the Sephirot or I might have had success, happiness and a true love partner in my life by now. Oh well.

DESTINY. Someone upstairs wants me single until I die. I have to trust it is for my Highest Good. I just wish G-D would shut my heart down so I can stop loving men who actually only Tease/disrespect me, or are commitment-phobes, abusers or just plain weak and inadequate.

I have been choosing partners like this since I was a teenager. I will pray for my heart to just close off around men who play me false. Being a healer makes this fucking hard for me but I deserve happiness and true love too. Maybe next life!

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The universe provides. I popped in to Woolworths to buy cat biscuits. As I was entering the store a young man made eye contact and offered me a small bag of veges for $3. So I got a rockmelon, capsicum, bananas, tomato. Rapt.

Then I got a butterflied Portuguese chicken for $5 and cooked corned beef for $6. Then I got the cat biscuits and bones for Bobo and a loaf of bread for $2.

I had not quite enough money so I put in $4 in coins and managed to get the rest on my card. Still a good buy for $32. The chicken is delicious! It is actually my "break fast" lmao!

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4.38 pm. Awake from a dream about starting a coffee shop in a university campus from scratch with a couple of my mother's teapots and German porcelain. Haha. It was mayhem. My mother (true to form) didn't want to pay me. I was stressing out about serving customers with mis-matching China, no till and not enough food. Haha. Great dream but stressful.

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22 May 2015

A long hot soak in Epsom salts. 2 painkillers. Hopefully I shape up for the casino tomorrow night. Karen is coming over and we are going out together.

Crystal and Mona and Lua are going to be moving her house still, and will sleep chez moi. All good!

Then on Saturday night, Jarrod and I will attend the finale of Crystal's show. Then we will have a few drinks and then off to the airport to send my girl out into the big wide world. On a jet plane to Paris, France. So exciting for her.

22 May 2014

Woohoo! I went through my vacuum cleaner bag and found my diamond nose stud and another Titanium nose ring. I also found a few garnet beads I has dropped.

I guess I will never see my 18 ct Italian bracelet or 9 ct snake ring I lost at Irish Murphys though but I am really thrilled to find my diamond nose ring. I was thinking about pricing old diamond earrings at Cash Converters to get new ones made. Now I don't have to spend the money.

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Tonight I watched Anna Karenina followed by The Tree of Life. Now I feel depressed. Oy. Time for bed I guess.

22 May 2013

Lyn Sloane: Listening to 4BC this morning, there is another reminder that all those who have a bank account that has not had any activity for 3 years (previously 7) - will have to contact your bank who contacts ASIC to have their funds returned.

To my knowledge 'activity' means taking/putting money into account and does not include the monthly rollover/interest activity. This law was not to have taken effect until 31 May, however, it seems some accounts have been accessed before then. This includes term deposits. The government takes possession and you also have to prove that the money is yours.

To date, the banks have been most co-operative however, it can take 6 weeks for it to be returned after the appropriate forms have been submitted by the account holder and the bank. It is important to spread the word on this, in particular the people who have a 'nest egg' for their retirements, operations, emergencies.

Also, worthy of note, even if an inactive account is linked to other accounts that you do use albiet regularly, the government will still make a claim. I am waiting to see if this applies to superannuation that has not been updated, i.e. if a person changes jobs, uses a new fund and does not consolidate.

Anyone have any info on this? If not, I'll be seeing the local member of parliament and provide an update when I can.

Me: Reminds me of times when people had to paper their walls with money as it was worthless. A wheelbarrow full bought a loaf of bread. I never have any money to bank but if I did I would be disinclined to trust the banks or the govt anyway. Subsuming hard working and hard saving people's money is another sign of the thinly disguised fascism I am seeing everywhere.

Newman govt is closing down the valuable and necessary Sexual Health Clinics. Which means those who can't afford to go to their GPs or whose GPs discriminate against them due to poverty or sexual orientation will be put at risk of not getting free and valuable treatment. The risk of the spread of STIs will increase accordingly.

We are living in Dangerous times when the social mores and sexual protection are fairly defunct and now we can't rely on govt to fund the only resources for many with Aids or for Sex workers to go to in complete safety and confidence.

22 May 2011

Today I felt bored, bored, lonely, fractious then bored and lonely, then frustrated and lonely then I thought buggar it, so I took the dog for a walk to the convenience store to buy cat food. (Bella was ecstatic about that!) then came home, chopped branches off trees and spent until dusk, pruning them into my compost bin. Now a happier girl, but still a bit lonely and well.........fr....act....ious.

One great thing, the Nutty Christians are wrong, so wrong on so many levels with their negative bullshit sectarian violence and downing all the fragile peeps who believe all that stuff, AND to really prove them the crapheads they truly are, HaShem in his Infinite, Smiling and Gracious Wisdom, gave everyone in Brisbane Australia an extremely beautiful day. What more can anyone want, just for today, life goes on! Woooohoooo!

Missy Wilks: well Hashem in his Infinite, Smiling and Gracious Wisdom left us poor toowoomba bastards out!!! cloudy, miserable, cold. pfft.

Me: Oh noooo, sorry Melissa. The weather here was perfect. Bright blue sunny skies, no wind and just warm, not too hot or cold. I'll send some sunshine your way....sounds like T'Womb needs it! xxx

Missy Wilks: would be nice, thankyou!!! lol

Me: No Probs....The Big Guy and I will put in a request with the Weather Angels. Sure it can be easily arranged LOL

Missy: i'm counting on you, i have buttloads of washing that just doesn't want to dry hanging in my house lol

Me: Well, I can only put in a request...I'm not G-d although I seem to be able to fudge the weather on occasion although I'm sure it's a coincidence. My grandfather was a sort of weather witch. He used to get asked by the sailors to whistle up a wind on the sailing ships when they were becalmed.

He didn't like to do it cos it meant he lost so many weeks or months off his life-span, so he would wait up to a week, until they got really worried, and only then did he do his magic with the weather. LOL. I never learned how, as I never met this man in person but I must say, it's a clever thing to know how to do.

Missy: jeez. hope he had a good super plan with medical and dental included lol...

Me: I think he got put on the trains to Auschwitz or other camps in Poland, not because he was a Jew, but most likely because he consorted with the Rom, pre-1939.

They used to park their gypsy caravans all around the streets near his apartment and I was told that my grandfather was so knowledgable in the occult or magical practises that he actually used to teach them! They used to come once a year when they were travelling through Hamburg.

I'm certain that his association with the Rom was enough to have him sent to a concentration camp to be gassed as this was the fate of the Rom as well as the Jews. I have no real evidence to support this though and as I don't know how to contact remaining relatives in Poland, I can't get proof.

The last time my mother saw and spoke to my biological grandfather, she was 16 and it was 1943. She threw him out of her family home because he informed her he was actually her natural father, and she never saw him again.

A rumour went round that he was sent on the trains, but there's no way of knowing his true fate. So if he perished in the Holocaust, then ironically all that 'whistling the wind' as a young ship’s carpenter at sea, really did shorten his lifespan considerably and it was not even by choice.

Missy: phew. far out. what can i say to that? its interesting, but its a lot.

Me: Yup, my mother who had been quite a negative person in my life for most of my life (she had her good points though) used to get drunk and cry, "I'm a bastard!" (this was back in the day when it was the most enormous stigma to be illegitimate).

One day, when she'd been particularly vicious to me, she said it to me, and I just nodded sagely and said "Yes, yes you are!" and I truly meant it. LOL. She looked at me and for once, (Gisela could sometimes eschew a lot of integrity, rare but it could be plumbed at times!) we both burst out laughing. It was very healing!

Missy: haha go Tanya!!!! cheering for you in retrospect lol

Me: The Truth Will Out LOL...but you have to be careful who you let it out on....can be something that is hard to deal with lol

Update 2022: some lunatic Christian sect had declared the world was going to end at that particular time. Fools! The world will never end. Life always finds a way!

Copyright Tanya Désirée Arons