The Playlist That Saved My Life
Now I am not afraid to keep on living I am not afraid to walk this world alone
One day while searching for a My Chemical Romance CD, I accidentally came across the band H.I.M. I had no idea or cogitation who this band was, however, I really appreciated their album art. With some hesitation, I thought "what the Hell" and decided to give them a try.
I had no indication that my life was about to forever change. The words to every song resonated with me on such a level that it was hauntingly emotional and beautiful. I felt every word deep in my soul as if the utterances were meant just for me. Sometimes I would literally find tears trickling down my cheeks. This was no conventional crush or a common obsession. This was my life that this man was so perfectly vocalizing, utilizing "the tried and true James Dean formula, where sensitivity and edginess immaculately joined one another.
That voice..the weepings of his soul..what else can I say?
The main songwriter of HIM is vocalist Ville Valo. His songs largely deal with themes of love, pain, and depression. When discussing his songwriting process, Valo explained: [quote] "I didn't know how to cope with the world. Then I found an instrument, and through that, I realized, that I am able to cope with the world and its evils, a bit better, through writing songs."
Valo's lyrics have been described as "oozing with blood-dripping hearts and gothic melodrama". His voice and his words pulled me through some unbearable times in my life. I'd cry myself to sleep listening to the aching, baritone voice of the only person who truly understood my pain.
1. The Funeral Of Hearts - H.I.M
When my daddy died, I listened to this song at least two times a day for six months. Even now when I'm missing him, whenever I feel defeated, blue, or empty I play it on repeat.
Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom
The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you
2. Join Me In Death - H.I.M
The song that literally saved my life. I had contemplated ending my own life on more than one occasion. Life was hard, I felt alone, I honestly felt abandoned, forsaken, and abominated. So many nights whilst alone in the dark with my own haunted thoughts....this song got me through.
We are so young
Our lives have just begun
But already we are considering
Escape from this world
3. Knowing Me, Knowing You - H.I.M
When I finally found myself again and began to realize my worth,merit, and, value...when I learned to love myself again. This song took me by the hand and led me right out of the door from my old ways and into a beautiful, happy, new life.
No more carefree laughter
Silence ever after
Walking through an empty house
Tears in my eyes
Here is where the story ends
This is goodbye
Knowing me, knowing you,
There is nothing we can do
Knowing me, knowing you,
We just have to face it, this time we're through
Knowing me, knowing you
It's the best I can do
I can't help but feel somewhat torn and guilty as I have been in an unadvertised, unexposed, secretive relationship with Gerard Way for many, many years.
" Baby, you helped me too, more than you'll ever know and you will always have a warm place on my playlist."
4. Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey, if you stay
I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
THANK YOU FOR SAVING MY LIFE!
About the Creator
Rebecca Lynn Ivey
I wield words to weave tales across genres, but my heart belongs to the shadows.
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