When I think makeup I think art, so I am going to share my makeup journey before I do, let me take you back on my makeup journey.
Every girl dreams of the perfect wedding just not the person.
I'm pretty sure I did not dream of growing up, getting married, and having such a toxic marriage.
Something I have never talked about publicly, even though I know many go through this as well.
I was the oldest sibling of 4, my mother was a single parent. As the oldest sibling I went through the same stress my mother went through, this caused me to have no confidence, mental health problems. I never realized this until now. Growing up my mother put a lot of pressure on me since I was her right hand, I helped her care for my other siblings, care for our home. You could call me her assistant well that's what I felt like, even though I know my mother meant well. Being a single parent now I understand a lot of what my mother went through. Of course no child should ever have to go through any stress, a child barely understands our world. We as parents are supposed to help them understand this world, make it easier and raise them right after all they are the future. I don't blame my mother fully for my mental health issues even though she kinda is the source of it. She did her best I don't hold a grudge against her, although growing up I did often think I was the source of her problems which really messed me up emotionally.
As a young adult they always tell you to make a list of careers. I have to say becoming a stripper was most definitely not on my list. I never had anything against it, I just knew a bit about it, more like what social media, movies, shows displayed the role of a stripper. I'm not gonna lie I was always curious ,but according to stereotypes I was suppose to think it was wrong.