UNpretentious
Bio
I choose empathy over sympathy, because I am a problem solver. I’m a dreamer, that wants to be able to help others Grow, Evolve and Dream big safely. BOSS Mentality. Poetic Flow. Unconditional Lover. Artisan & Server Spirit. INFP, thats me!
Stories (23/0)
Your Heart
Happiness is supposedly based on the warmth of your heart. Therefore, we all have happiness inside of us as long as we are living, if you'd like to think of it in that way. Your happiness could also be dependent on how helpful and kind you are to others, the warmth of your heart is the generosity of your character. No matter which one happiness is based on, it doesn't work without a smile, and laughter, the delivery of your generosity matters.
By UNpretentious4 years ago in Motivation
Without A Guide
My mother used to tell me all the time, “There's no book to tell you how to be a parent, I've tried my best with what I had and hoped for the best." She's right there's no guide to be a parent, in this world your criticized if your children are not of the best standards, or more well off than you were, but if they become than you then they say what adverse challenges for one had to overcome to have grown up in such a life. Well, mom this one's for you.
By UNpretentious4 years ago in Families
Throw up on me
I guess I'm chopped liver, chew me up and spit me out because you don't like the taste of me. It's unreal how you make me feel, like to be needed is something I should erase, because being needed doesn't always have a place. But I guess your teaching me that with your simple actions. You'll tell me things like; " Talk to me regularly like I am your friend not like this is an interview and you have to dress to impress." "Throw away the best version of you. Give me your worse, your nagging, your pain, your drama, your shame." Now you can give me this feeling x10 and make me wish I didn't love it. I know I'm not in love with you, but love you, yes I do, or maybe I just love what you make me do or how you help me better understand myself as a person and not just the help. I am the help, the giver, the slave of being used, and you know that and yet, won't allow me to, it kills my every nerve when I have to stop in my tracks, so everything your giving to me I will have to give it back. Regurgitating your trust issues, your famine of love, your indecision and your guilt, baby Im sorry if I puked on you, but these chunks represent us in ways more than you'd know. Talk to me and send it all flying out like a tidal wave.
By UNpretentious4 years ago in Humans
Good Guys
I've never enjoyed the idea that superhero's usually end up alone because the people they love are always caught in the cross fire. It supports the idea that nice guys finish last. I also don't understand or fully support the idea of a villain finding a partner in crime that may also be a love interest, being a good woman with an ill minded man and the same vise versa. The way the world works they expect us to be following this unrealistic guideline that we can’t be loved and do whats best for everyone at the same time, but, apparently you can be loved while selfishly fighting for your own glory and power. It makes no sense, but it could be that humanity shaped it in this sick minded manner. I don't know if i'd like to think of myself as this unbalanced yet balanced yin and yang representation. So I feel very undeserving of love even though I find myself giving love more often than not often.
By UNpretentious4 years ago in Humans
Anxious
These walls that once seemed so familiar to me is now unfamiliar in the sense of I cant get a hang of what it is that I see. I feel like I am a monkey that doesn't know how to hang on the same tree she was just hanging on, just before you met her. Heart racing, mind pounding, I don't think thats what I meant to say, I think I meant to say heart thinking, mind beating, thats not right either, either way, this is how my brain is functioning in the same place I used to be okay. Key word is used to in the sense of no longer, no longer capable of breathing how I used to. No longer capable of smiling in the way that I used to. No longer able to live like I used to, because this feeling of how i'm feeling is not something i'm used i'm not feeling too chipper even though I feel i'm supposed to, and i'm not too happy with feeling i'm how supposed to, knowing my heart is thudding out of my chest. Like a baby chick stuck in its egg, or a baby bird that can't fly out of its nest, I am not at my best, and this is my talking in a manner of being pretentious, but I cant help it i'm selfish.
By UNpretentious4 years ago in Psyche
Will You Let Me
Besides the external factors in your life you are more than just what you allow others to see. I shouldn't push off or away your worries and there won't always be a reason why something makes sense or is justified. There is no such thing as a perfect person, show me your insecurities, your fears, your talents, and tell me the secrets of understanding your love language; give me the recipe to love you. Could you ask yourself if giving me all of those things and me having the chance to love you properly is worse than me walking away because I don't know how to. I watch you swiftly move like the wind through the branches in the trees getting lost, causing leaves to fall as you pass by letting your presence be known. That's okay, it doesn't have to be a smooth journey, you're going to be too rough sometimes, it'll be a tight squeeze, but just remind yourself of why you're doing all of this and breathe. I didn't have the words to say to you before but I thought I was being as helpful as possible but felt it just wasn't enough, because of how much you still had left to say after I had found a solution to your problems as its arisen within your mind and formed with your words.
By UNpretentious4 years ago in Humans
- Top Story - June 2020
Say His NameTop Story - June 2020
High off of our pain that we continue to be belittled as if our lives don’t matter. To march for our lives to be visibly as equal as the lives of those whose skin looks just like yours. There are whites protesting with us peacefully as there are white people tagging buildings and looting, but some are not even doing it in the name of George Floyd. To walk among roads to shout an innocent mans life that was taken, because he was seen as a threat, feeling the need to silence us when we have been silent for too long. When we live in a world that is unjust and bite our tongues as if it is okay, as if it is safer to be quiet but we still can die by your hands even when we are quiet. To hear my brothers and sisters crying out in pain because, us turning our backs and walking away was not enough for you. To see the media focus our story on people that allow you to believe we are vicious animals needing to be tamed. To feel the need to put extra force on black people because the color of our skin alone is threatening to you even as we lie on our backs to be detained. To hear them cry out “ I can’t breathe” and not be showed mercy.
By UNpretentious4 years ago in The Swamp
That Time I Got Called...
Someone I talked to in a group home I lived at for a year called me an attention whore, and I was offended but I was unaware that when I had someones attention I tried everything to make sure I kept it because in the end I feared being neglected and pushed under the rug. I was seeking attention of a pure kind of love that I myself was not giving. It was and still is a struggle to be myself because I see myself as someone who honestly gives back the same vibes I'm given and to a point I feel like I'm just mirroring people I come across. In life we are all searching to find our true self to become the best versions of ourselves even if it hurts, and my true self is someone who is tired of being in the shadows but also afraid of coming to the light because being real and vulnerable in the world sometimes gets you fed to the vultures. But if I'm going to have my name spit on or tread through the mud it will NOT for me being the kind of girl to walk on egg shells but instead empowering myself and others to stand up for their quirky, cheesy, kind self and saying FORGET YOU WORLD! I'm me and there and nothing you can do about it but love me or hate me, either way I'm glad I was me through it all. so to the person who called me an attention whore, I thank you, not because you were right, but because it opened my eyes to how I walked in fear of not being accepted for being me and in return got pushed away and casted out anyways. I am a basket case, and I have issues, but so what, who doesn't? I'm 21 years old, I pretty much don't know what I'm doing or where I'm going but I just pray that I get there doing everything I feared the most, being unapologetically me. And if you don't know me or have never met me, I am always apologizing even for things that are not my fault and that is just something that needs to stop. I just have one thing to say the picture will never appear to be what it seems if you keep giving people puzzle pieces of you, and it will be so much easier for people to leave you because if they don't have a frame to put you in. SO give them the picture and give them the frame size if you must, but don't let them judge you or treat you any less than you deserve because you never gave them a chance to know you. Not everyone is out to get you, some people say you have to earn trust, call me naive but I think trust is something taken away from people who already have it, not given to people who never have. We all deserve a seat at the table, and even though i was called out of my name, I know I still want that person to reach his full potential, I also know I just don't want it to be at my table.
By UNpretentious4 years ago in Motivation