The Vibe Podcast
Bio
My name is Diana Costas and in solving my father’s 38 year old murder mystery in 2021, I was inspired to create The Vibe Podcast and write my very first book! How Spirituality Saved My Life is now available! First of many books 🙏🏽
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Ladies!
They say that time and people change, perhaps this is true. What remains the same at least in my experience, is men’s primitive way of thinking. I study everything from religion; I read the Quran, Torah, Journey to the Roots of Rastafari, Native American Spirituality, Buddhism, Crystals, Essential Oils, the Brain and the Body. You can catch me reading on Facebook live! Diana Costas is the name and I refer to myself as the motherfucking mark. Back in 2017 I got baptized born again and also got on the deanslist at Berkeley College majoring in Healthcare Administration. In other words I hit you with beauty,brawn and brain! I also come with a player haters degree as I have worked the NY Strip Club scene for many years and can tell you this.. ladies satisfy your man! Or somebody else will! When in a serious relationship you should never forget what attracted you to your mate. Because men, no matter how intelligent they may be or what they have accomplished in life when it comes to the romance department.. unfortunately they often fall short. So it is our duty as their lady to keep them aroused.. gentlemen, eyes this way. I believe this is due to primitive thinking. With the advancement in the world and technology, it is my belief we have forgotten our native ways. Almost as if we have forgotten we are human. We behave like robots, everything is a responsibility.. in essence we have forgotten how to live and the way this world is currently going, I might just be right in my beliefs. What has not changed is our way of thinking. How our brain registers and computes things. This will never change, one thing technology cannot change is Nature. Since the beginning of time, men have been known as the hunters and gatherers aka conquistadors. In many cultures, polygamy was quite alright. Very common in Taino culture, which is my native culture but it is not acceptable in my eyes. I respect everyone’s choices in life, however for a woman like me who has accomplished lots on my own, like trademarking The Vibe Podcast and currently working on my book.. yeah I better be the main or none darling. But because of how men think, none of that matters. Their eyes will still wander and if I don’t do my part, chances are my partner will cheat. So I better not forget what attracted me to my mate in the first place. And if he is that special then it’s a piece of cake. I do not understand why women when in a serious relationship decide that’s the perfect time to let themselves go. I understand the honeymoon phase when you’re just having fun but a lifetime of letting go and you expect your partner to not cheat? Selfish! In my journey I have learned that to limit yourself for any reason is selfish and there is punishment for that. I call them blocking your own blessings. How beautiful it is when one is in a loving relationship, why wouldn’t we keep the momentum going? Genetically men are designed to hunt and gather (primitive thinking) no matter what materials we have or what we have accomplished nothing can stop primitive thinking but we can “trick” the brain into thinking a certain way that will distract your mate from primitive thinking. Ideally I would expect a man to act right but was he raised right? Sadly more often than not the answer is No.. this is why we must do better for our future generations. In the meantime ladies, you gotta put in that work. If your mate is that special then, piece of cake. Remember that fact and the relationship will work out. How can you put in work? Surprise dress up ideas could work, sexy. Men are visionaries so imagination is key. Although men are obviously stronger than a woman, they like to be dominated. Remember, my PHD from the stripper world. Because of their primitive thinking, what they see in front of them matters. What you’re wearing should matter, don’t go for the straight nudity. Sometimes clothing if worn right, could be very sexy. Men also are conquistadors, there’s an art to removing women’s clothing off of her body, again if worn right could be very sexy. Unfortunately there’s a lot of entitlement that comes with being a man.. (it is what it is) but if he’s the right one I say this quote from the song, No-limit the Remix, G-Eazy and too many to mention but the quote goes like this “slob on my knob like corn on the cob” ladies you gotta put in that work. If he’s the right one, piece of cake. Men like to feel like they have conquered and slobbing on their knob will surely make him feel accomplished. Surprise slobs on the knob will work wonders in your relationship! So will dress up and remember if he’s the right one, piece of cake! Long live true love 💕
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Confessions
Office Romance
I am sure this has happened to everyone.. An office romance?.. No No. Don’t do it! This is goes for any kind of job in that matter. The reason I do not recommend and believe me I’ve had my share. We actually have a Pocast episode entitled, Flames with No Names dedicated to this topic on The Vibe Podcast available on many platforms, you’ll see my mug! (Plug) But the reason I do not recommend is because although we spend more time with our co-workers than what we do with our own families, we truly do not know whom we are dealing with. Remember your co-worker is just a suit/unfiform and name tag, once they clock out and go home that’s the person whom you’re really dealing with. And in my journey the revelations uncovered have been quite disturbing to say the least. I’m sure there have been office romances that have worked out but my belief is more often than not these romances have not worked out. I have been in situations where someone I thought I knew because we worked together for X amount of time completely stabbed me on the back! Definitely not worth my time to ever do it again. The workplace runs very much like a high school. You have your clicks, the gossipers, the rude managers. Same shit different toilet someone once said. I’d also be very careful of the so called friends at the workplace. We had a little crew at my previous job Cell Block 8 (Section 8) and as soon as one person got promoted to being my Supervisor, he thought it was pick on Diana time like everyone else.. he thought wrong. You just don’t really know who your co-workers are and much like high school, you have a lot of fakers at the workplace. I wouldn’t invest my time in something like that ever again. These kinds of relationships could be haunting and daunting. They can drain the life outta you, I don’t care how fine he is. Not even for a bootycall as those could be trouble as well. I say when it comes to the office romance, just don’t do it. You will avoid trouble trust there is a whole world out there. You do not want to bang someone you see for eight hours a day, five days a week. You want to miss your partner and have some of the wildest sex you’ve ever had because you miss each other that much. Now that’s hot, I personally I enjoy my alone time. There is no better sex than the “I miss you type of sex” Healthy space in a healthy relationship is a recipe for success and also hot sex. Trust that is a lot more fun, regardless of what the clicks at high school say, I mean co-workers. It’s shocking how adults really behave so immaturely at the work place. I wonder what is up with their home life that they need to be in a clicky environment. I Aries, am a lone wolf and I am happy I get to roam free. I lead never follow and I wish more females were like this. I see chicks being used or following each other like a flock of chickens and I think to myself I must do better, for the sake of my children. Especially since I have a daughter. I want her to be independent and definitely not a follower. Thank you for reading and enjoy The Vibe, The Office Romance Vibes, remember just don’t do it! No matter what they say, it’s just not worth it.
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Confessions
Players turn into Sugar Daddies
If you are over the age of 40, gentlemen I have news for you.. you are no longer a Player. You are now a Sugar Daddy, congratulations there is nothing to be proud of. In essence you are now a waste, unless you wanna take me shopping. Otherwise, I’m busy. This is the Karma that players get. I believe this is due to unhandled trauma and/or Mid-life crisis because I’ve seen men with painted beards and darling that is not cute. I write painted beard vs. dye because I’ve seen beards so dark it looks shoe polish was used to cover up the grays and it looks crazy to be quite honest. Men it’s ok to age gracefully, you had your time. By the age of 40, you should be looking at life a bit differently. No more conquests, you will become a sugar daddy and not conquistador. Here are some clues to let you know you have become a sugar daddy. You’re the age 40 and over, the ladies are now younger and you are now spending more money. Sugar daddy! The ladies are now younger not because you are that fly but because the ladies your age don’t have time for your games! You think imma let someone play me?? Nope I’m too old for that and that is a major turn off, go talk to 22 year old Sally the Bartender, you have to tip her for your time but at least she makes you feel good. The question is why do some continue the playing field passed the age of 40? Unhandled trauma/ mid life crisis and mommy issues are all reasons men continue to play after a certain age and I am here to tell you it’s not cute. You go from being a player to that creep at the Bar. It’s not cute darling but I am here to help! There’s nothing sexier than aging gracefully. Since I began my Spiritual Journey in February of 2021, my youth has been restored. I do not look 40, therefore I do not just give it away. Men should think this way too, if you’re just giving it away there’s nothing to offer so what are you now?? A waste, and I’m trying to prevent this because life is too short and too beautiful to waste. Unhandled trauma will cause you to do the unthinkable. Like financially support someone for their time and you think you’re playing bitches?I’m sure some folks are ok with that. But I wonder if some are aware that this is what they have become. Understand that you’re worthy enough to have wild sexual experiences with one person. God has equipped us with absolutely everything we need and there is someone out there designed just for you and your kinky fantasies but you’re not going to find her banging the world and even worse if you’re paying for it. Especially now with this Covid Pandemic, it is not the time to be playing the field. It is the time for self-improvement. Understand that you should not be paying for someone’s time, you’re wasting your life at this point. Look within yourself to figure what it is you’re really looking for. In my journey I have seen that majority of the players also have dysfunctional families. Perfect time to look within the self and figure what hurts so you can fix it and do better. Also dirty dick is a turn off, a lady like me is not going to want someone who’s giving their stick away even if you wear a condom. It’s still gross! Understand quality over quantity, if you’re giving it away constantly the caliber of ladies are going to diminish in quality unless you cum correct financially. Now it becomes a transaction more than a sexual encounter and you are better than that darling. My hope in sharing this piece is that men understand that over the age of 40, you are no longer a player. You’re a Sugar Daddy and I suspect that due to unhandled trauma majority of these sugar daddies are not aware of what they have become. If you’re used to playing the field, this is the perfect time to take a time out for introspection and see what qualities you need to work on as a man. Due to the quality of men in today’s society I am proud to announce that I am celibate. February will mark one year, I can say I’ve had enough to be good on that for the rest of my life. I have accomplished a lot on my own I can say confidently there’s nothing that a man can do for me that I can’t do on my own and better. I am not here to be played, especially now that I have trademarked a company. I am no longer a piece of Ass, I am a brand darling and I cannot allow intruders, players, sugar daddies nor bitch behavior vibes in here! I am absolutely good on that. For a woman to say she never wants a sexual partner speaks volumes on today’s society and Men you need to get it together because although I’m quite alright being celibate I can tell you that is not the way God intended. But I’m never going to find the one banging everyone and neither are you. Life is too short and too beautiful for instant gratification. We must do better.
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Confessions
New Year’s 🎉
The year was 2010 and I was still friends with my Ex I was in love with him, so in love I ok’d just being his friend. See he and I have a lot of history, he actually saved my life. And although the relationship didn’t work out, we remained friends. Back then I had very strict rules. Never sleep with your Ex. That is actually a good rule to live by, less mistakes. However, if you still have feelings for your Ex, perhaps hanging out with him is not a good idea. You have to guard your heart. At that time I did not understand so I was ok with just being his friend. I’m sure he was ok with that too as we always had a good time when hanging out. Tommy has always been respectful when it came to making moves on a chick. I don’t understand how he could be a player. We will label him, the respectful player. We have been broken up longer than what we were together yet he never really made a move on me. Now that I see things a bit differently, I suspect he was intimidated by me. I will be sharing stories on this Blog and you decide! Was he intimidated or was he a respectful player? Either way I adore him, I would not be here today if it weren’t for him plucking me out of Ricks’s Cabaret on 33rd Street, NYC. Like I mentioned previously, we have a lot of history together. By 2010, I had landed my very first hotel job and was doing pretty well.. so I thought. This was the beginning of my depression. See he pulled me out of a very dark life and I failed to get help for myself mentally so I began to fall into depression. What I used to do for a living prior to 2010 embarrassed me, I was ashamed of myself and rather than get help I thought I was fine because I now had a regular job. Not a good move, once you have a life changing experience you must speak to someone of your hurt/trauma. What I did during my dark times in life caused trauma. The only person I hurt was myself because nobody else knew of that life, well Tommy knew what I was doing.. he met me at Rick’s. I am thankful for him because of him pulling me out I have reached my maximum potential. I had no idea I was so intelligent. Insecurities and a past history of trauma will limit your thinking into believing you’re not worthy. I lived a life of sadness until I met Tommy. For once I had someone who genuinely cared about me and did not try to make sexual advances toward me like everyone else? Even though I met him in a Strip Club he still respected me? WTF? Respectful player I tell you because we had our ups and downs. He played me, I played him. It went both ways but we decided to call it quits sometime in 2009-2010. He still wanted to be in my son’s life and I told him, if he were to be in my son’s life he could never leave or be in and out.. Tommy kept his word and stayed in my son’s life for years until I got into a serious (controlling) relationship in 2015. I have no regrets of the past as Mark Twain said, history doesn’t repeat itself but it rhymes. I needed to be in that controlling relationship to learn about my dark side and Toxic Family. Now that controlling relationship is in the past, I can share stories of my experiences and my beloved Ex who once upon a time saved my life. The memories bring a smile to my face and I cherish our time together. It’s a blessing that I am a writer because all of my journals will come to life and I will take you back in time. New York City, the city that never sleeps. The City where you can get anything you’d like so long as the price is right. And I will introduce to you the man who saved me, Mr. Thomas Edward Aldinger. Ironworker, Veteran, Player and Budlight lover. Yup he’s got plenty of stories too! So it’s New Year’s Eve and my home was the place to be. My mother and I cooked, my brother was home and brought his girlfriend along with his friend George. We’re having a good time drinking and eating traditional Puerto Rican food. Pernil y arroz con gandules and the list goes on. Soon as it hit midnight we hopped on the train toward NYC. Of course there were no cabs as it had just turned 1/1/11. So what do we do? We hailed a horse and carriage. We were drunk on a horse and carriage screaming HAPPY NEW YEAR! to everyone that passed us. The place to be was, The Mean Fiddler over on 47th street. We danced, we partied but I was longing to see my “friend” aka crush Tommy, the respectful player who was at another bar in NYC. So we took the party to where Tommy was. We had a blast but what I remember mostly was, me pushing myself on to my Ex! We were having some drinks and I had enough of the pretend bullshit. I put my hand on his chest at the bar and pushed up on him. I kissed him! We partied until the wee hours in the morning and took it to his apartment where I crashed at about 11am. Nothing happened because Tommy is a respectful player and my rule is never have sex with an Ex. We have lots of similarities I guess, but we crashed at 11 am and I was up by 1pm to go to work at the hotel. Although neither of us got laid, this was the best New Year I ever had. We love to laugh and dance so I am grateful I can now share stories of our past. Looking at the younger generation of today, I can say this.. ya’ll can’t hang. Not like how we did in our youth. Tommy would leave the bar to be at work at 7am, as an Ironworker and I could function on two hours rest. I do not see that in today’s youth. A security guard, not even 30 years old would fall asleep in the beginning of his shift at my recent job and I’m like WTF??! I hope in sharing my story it teaches folks to do better, even in party situations be respectful and be responsible. Now that’s partying like a G.
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Confessions
Feeling all my Feelings Book by Kim T.S.
Reading and writing are just a couple of my favorite things to do! You can often catch me reading live on Facebook, Diana Costas is the name, check me out! Now I will begin to give my reviews on some of the books I have read on this blog, why not start with a Children’s book! This will be the first of many reviews so I am very excited.
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Families
Brownie
My beloved Brownie, I consider him my Animal Spirit Guide. I have been on a Spiritual Journey since February 2021 but my experience with Brownie happened before February, actually my kids had been wanting a dog for a very long time and for the longest time I said No. That’s because I had been suffering Depression and was busy listening to other people and not listening to myself. I am so thankful that part of my life is over with and we are all doing better mentally thank God. I don’t understand why I allowed my Toxic Family to control and disrespect me for so many years. In true Spaniard fashion, they all took over my home. Very much how the Spanish settlers did to the Island of Puerto Rico, oppression still goes on to this very day. I am happy I can share our story now. My home was no longer my home. It was theirs, my home was the place to be for my mother and siblings. I was their cook, my son no longer had his room. Looking back I cannot believe this was my life. Unhandled trauma did not allow me to understand that my own mother took my money left to me by my father. She took our Suvivors benefits and spent it on everyone. Not a smart move as a parent. When I came into some money, I gave her money. I was used by my own family. I’m here to share that it’s absolutely ok to break away from family. Remember love doesn’t hurt and they nearly destroyed me. I don’t understand why they all took over my crib yet have the nerve to talk about me behind my back. My oldest brother had an alcohol problem and when he drank, we’d have to be on our P’s and Q’s to avoid any violent outburst from him. One of my sisters asks me for my eggs in 2009, yet failed to tell me about my father. Then when I confront her about my father’s murder which happened 38 years ago, she tells me that my father was a drunk who sexually abused her. That’s a lie! I can tell you this is a lie because I have been sexually abused and when my nightmare ended I prayed that I never saw him again. God granted my wish and I never saw him again. Does my sister understand how DNA works? My father is very much part of me. If he abused her then why would she want any part of him inside her body in the form of a baby? The level of Mental Illness in that family is unreal. My other sister who seemed to be the nicest was actually the cruelest as if it wasn’t bad enough with the other two. Upon the knowledge of my father’s murder, she sabotaged my life to the point my daughter is not with me temporarily. When I confronted everyone about the truth of my father’s murder, her claim was that I was crazy. The nasty emails and text messages ensued. But prior to February, I was fine to be walked all over. Take over my crib, I have to tolerate disrespect and asked for body parts. But the minute I provide you with the truth of the murder you thought I would never find out about, you claim that I am crazy? How dare you, how dare you, how dare you. Due to my sister’s wild reaction my relationship with my younger brother had been severed. I know one day my brother will return to me, he’s my full blood brother. The kid I would beat up boys for, the one I always looked out for. The one I deserted when I fell into a depression from about 2009. Back in 2009 I decided to get a real job after years of hustling in the Stripper world and although I had good jobs in the hospitality industry I was unhappy. My family was draining my energy from taking over my crib, using my hotel discounts and I being disrespected by my bosses at the job. I was not doing well in the romance department either. Looking back, everyone was just using and abusing me. This affected my wellness and unhandled trauma has sort of a blinding affect and I didn’t even know I was suffering from severe Depression until about 2015-16 when I began therapy. After years of abuse it was a must that I seek help otherwise I don’t know where I would be today. I’ve always tried to do what’s right with the cards handed to me. I was always trying for my family and nothing I did satisfied them because I don’t understand if I give you everything, why do you in turn disrespect me? Oppression. I was an object to them, a cash cow and when I could no longer provide an income or hotel discounts even though they continued taking over my crib. They also continued with their disrespect toward me. Very much like the Spanish settlers taking over Puerto Rico and using the Taino for their land. They brought slaves in from Africa creating our beautiful blend but nonetheless they still took what did not belong to them. This is after being welcomed to the Island by the Natives. The Taino welcomed Columbus and others to the Island, they ultimately took over killing many Indians. Falsifying documents to the point it was believed that the Taino Indian was extinct. I am happy to report, we are still here! Not extinct, while my DNA may have the beautiful blend of Native Taino, African and Spaniard I resonate with my Native side mostly which is why I have felt different my whole life. I don’t understand why my family would take my kindness for weakness. Very foolish on their part. I hope they are proud of themselves for destroying our lives. I am grateful for my Ancestors in this journey I have been on since February, however I am quite tired. I look forward to the day this madness is a distant memory. I am grateful for Brownie assisting me in my Spiritual Journey. I’ve learned something’s about myself because of him. Absolutely no one in my family wanted me to have this dog, why? I do not know because I do not understand toxicity. Never in my depressed state did I intentionally cause any harm upon anyone else. I may have isolated myself, hurt myself never anyone else. Here it is Thanksgiving Day and I still wonder what I have done to deserve this level of disrespect. But my children wanted a dog, although my entitled family didn’t want me to have a dog we were getting one regardless of what they said. My mother offered to bring me a dog and they both arrived in New York from Puerto Rico on 10/27/20. Leads me to believe that no one wanted or no one was happy when my mother had me. All my older siblings made it their business to comment on my new dog and after everything that has transpired it is quite obvious that my birth affected them negatively. Regardless of how I came into this world, I was an innocent life who didn’t ask to be born! I was not part of the affair! I was the product, but as children they would not be able to understand as Adults I expect more. I am grateful and I do thank my mother for sending me this dog and as horrible as my life has been I am grateful she put me on this Earth. I know one day I will be in a position to help others and I have two beautiful children. Brownie is the cherry on top of all the things that make me happy. I never knew my Father as he was murdered when I was a baby but I feel like through Brownie I have learned some things about my Dad. Animals are special and they all have special meaning and purpose. I have a book called, Pocket Guide to Spirit Animals Understanding Messages from your Animal Spirit Guides written by Dr. Steven Farmer. Very helpful in understanding life a bit better as all living creatures matter and why we must respect all lives. I believe God sent me this dog to guide me in my Spiritual Journey. I don’t know where I would be today without Brownie. Especially with my daughter not being home temporarily, I need all the support I can get. Brownie is an old soul, he doesn’t look one year old to me and is not the typical puppy type of dog. He potty trained himself and enjoys going for runs. I refer to him as my running partner. He likes to play with balls and doesn’t like to share, in a Basketball game type of fashion. Sometimes he rushes me when it’s time to go for a run and he’s very protective over me. He’s interested in my Raven Claw and when I play Guiro, a traditional Puerto Rican instrument he absolutely loves it. You can catch us dancing on The Vibe Podcast on YouTube! Somehow all these qualities remind me of my father. My father was in the military so being fit was a must. My mother told me my father would get up in the morning and go running. My father was a musician and I felt a calling to get both a guitar and guiro which Brownie loves. My father was a tough guy! One day I wish to write about our drafted Vets. Takes an extraordinary individual to be pulled out of beautiful and sunny Puerto Rico and dumped in cold Korea in the 50’s when racism was blatant and also the norm. Racism is still a problem today but harder to detect I believe. You have to prove someone to be a Racist today when back in the day it was quite obvious to say the least. But Brownie’s most precious quality is that he prays with me. Whenever I go to my prayer rug, Brownie comes along and sits with me as I pray. We also have a YouTube video on that! I couldn’t have done this without Brownie! I am forever thankful God sent me this dog as a guide in my journey. John 16:13, when you give your life to God the Holy Spirit will guide you to the truth. To be quite honest, as strong as I am it is because of Brownie that I am able to proceed with all the truths revealed to me since February so I thank God he was sent to me however the case may be, for Brownie I would do it all again! A mut straight from the Island of Puerto Rico! Who knew you could do so much! One day we will do more than thank God for our furry friends, my wish is to help Animals somehow one day. Whether it’s opening a shelter or donating to an organization one day we will do more and teach the proper way on how all lives truly matter. Thank you for reading this piece on my beloved Brownie!
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Petlife
Rude Co-Worker
I can tell you in just about every job I’ve had hatred against me. Why? Because of my looks that’s why. They see a pretty girl and they think.. Punk. I have news for you folks, this is a form of Bullying. Grown up bullying at the work place. And I being a former Manager at several NYC properties would never allow that upon myself or those on my team. Ask about me :) my name is Diana Costas and I refer to myself as the motherfucking mark. I have been a target of bullying for most of my life. I got so tired of it that I decided to trademark my Podcast Company. Very grateful I will be allowed to speak on work place culture. When I was a Manager, I considered myself to be a fair one. I balanced and wanted to create a fun work environment but not everyone is like that. An example of Bullying at the work place, is we have some folks thinking that because of their “Supervisor” or “Manager” title this entitles them to speak to you in a derogatory manner. Not allowed darling, that’s actually an abusive trait and I wonder about your home life. Are you so miserable at home you must take it out on your employees? May I remind you that you are an adult? And the only way to get respect is if you give respect? Reminder, we are Adults and we are supposed to know better. Nothing, not even your title gives you authority to disrespect. But unfortunately due to unhandled trauma, the work place title really does it for some folks.. how shallow. All you need is a title to get your dick hard? I need more than that darling, because a title doesn’t do it for me I do not tolerate any form of disrespect. I have had plenty of jobs and can share this credo, you get more bees with honey. Plain and simple, your title means nothing. My belief is this, if a Manager cannot respect themselves.. you ain’t gonna catch me respecting you darling. You must respect yourself in order for others to respect you. And your bullying/ abusive behavior at the workplace is indicative of someone who has no respect for themselves. How you conduct yourself really matters so make sure it’s positive and you will most likely get a positive feedback from your team. I have had the pleasure of working at several NYC hotels and these Union properties are no joke! I’ve learned something new at each property and what I learned at The Park Central Hotel NYC, is that a team will not respect you simply because of your title. You must come correct at all times. Shout out to the team at PC! I must re-visit my old stomping grounds. I enjoy the fact that I can write about my life experiences. I’ve had many employments, I’ve gone from Cashier, Stripper, Hotel Manager to Section 8! So I have plenty of rude co-worker stories! I got so tired of a nightmare called my life I decided to do something drastic and build my own company from scratch! Remember folks be mindful of whom you bully at the job, my next article might just be about you! The Vibe Podcast ™️ to include work place culture and I love it! If you have a rude co-worker story please email [email protected] and I will reach out to you! We must end this belief that just because someone is your Supervisor/Manager they can disrespect and/or harass. Let me remind you this is called bullying and as an adult this is a clear sign of an abuser. Not allowed, not on my watch or my name isn’t Diana Costas the motherfucking mark!
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Humans
DMX Lyric Breakdown
My poets are a bit different than most.. to the world DMX was a rapper, actor, drug addict. To me he was a Poet, I dedicated one of my episodes to him on The Vibe Podcast, available on many platforms. You will see my mug! Diana Costas is the name and I am the motherfucking mark! Born and raised in Yonkers, New York. I absolutely love all music and Rap music has been pivotal in my life. I am grateful for my Poet, DMX. His words have been super helpful growing up in the hood with no father, I rely on my Poets and movies for guidance as I can relate to so many. I believe God speaks through Poets, Writers, Singers and Artists. These talents are God given and I have been able to use music and movies as guides for my life. My life has been so wild, I needed Poets like DMX during my darkest times. Being a product of an affair hasn’t been easy and being bullied by my own family has been confusing to say the least. I have always felt hatred from my family. I’ve always felt like the outsider. I was always “different” and now I know why. I’ve been hated my whole life because of who my Father was. I have learned to accept that truth and I moved on with my life as of February 2021. But the blessing in disguise is that now I can write freely about my life. I am proud of myself during this time because I told everyone of my plans privately and they doubted me. I warned them and my exact words were, “how I share my story about you, depends on you”. Rather than express kindness, I got shitted on. So I thought to myself, am I really getting bullied for the rest of my life? I think not! I am thankful for Poets like DMX, much like when I was in my youth his words guided me and have been a blessing in my Spiritual Journey of today. We will celebrate one year of Wellness in February and I am very happy with the results. It’s an honor to breakdown some of DMX’s music. “Look through my Eyes” “Burning in hell but don’t deserve to be.” We are now in November and I still wonder what I have done to deserve the treatment my entire family has given me. The answer that comes to me is this, that is their unhandled trauma. All I did was be born! However affairs are ugly so I understand their pain but again all I did was be born. I must never look back now. “Look through my eyes” sure I am pretty but if you look through my eyes, you can see the Hell I have been put through. If I could speak to my Mother, I would ask her why did she have me? To allow Sexual and Physical abuse on me, take my money, to find out you knew who murdered my father???!!! Ultimate betrayal. “Look through my eyes”! “ I can understand why y’all scared of me” I had to PG13 that verse X. For someone to be where I have been, for someone to go through what I have been through and still smile means I am a powerful motherfucker! Also means I am not the one to fuck with. I don’t understand why my family would disrespect me the way they have but as X says, “ that’s what I get for fucking with strangers in the shade.” They’ve hated me my whole life, from my having to defend myself at the age of 13 against my older brother with a knife to my sister asking me for my body parts. In 2009 she asked me for my eggs. Thankfully I did not participate in that madness. Now about 12 years later I come to find out the truth of my father’s murder and the level of disrespect caused upon me when I presented the truth to them speaks volumes on their knowledge of this murder. Their reaction toward me is indicative of someone who knew of the crime. The childhood memories that came back to me on 138th street in the Bronx when I went to pay my respects on 3/30 is proof they knew of this “mystery”.. it should have been an unknown location why am I having childhood memories when I’m trying to pay my respects? I don’t travel to the Bronx so imagine how distraught I was remembering my childhood visits to Valencia Bakery and the races at Hunts Point. You do not hurt a sibling in the ways they have hurt me. I am thankful I am a Writer because the hurtful text messages and E-mails will be revealed to the world! Thank a Soldier for Freedom of Speech. My father was a Veteran and I intend on excersizing this right to the fullest extent. You do not treat a Human life or any life in the ways they have treated me. DMX said, “walk through my shoes it will hurt your feet” I am proud to have broken a very toxic cycle of abuse. I am here to say, Stop putting children in Adult situations! Happened to me and I know it happened to DMX. We happen to be from the same Hometown of Yonkers, New York. Home of the Brave indeed. “What’s my name” is another powerful song, for them to think that I was a Punk or Stupid was foolish. To actually take my kindness as a weakness was very foolish. I’m actually very much like my Pops and DMX, I fear no man!We Ride or Die! “What’s my name” I am grateful for this journey and I am grateful to have been kept in the Hood. Obviously there’s a lot to be done here, you simply cannot raise children this way and we must do better. No more pain in the Hood! This is why I must and will continue to share my story. To ok abuse, pain, murder is a travesty on Biblical proportions and this is the absolute norm in my neck of the woods. Not ok and I will not stop until things get better. I have to teach it’s absolutely ok to break away from a Toxic Family. I thank God for my Poets, Movies, Religion and Therapy. We must end the stigma on therapy, it’s absolutely ok to seek help. Not ok to hurt someone and then call them Crazy because they’re in therapy. This was done to me unfortunately and we must end the stigma as a result. Can you blame me for needing therapy? I really had no idea how disturbed that family is until I broke away. Another song that moves me is, Ruff Ryders Anthem. “ Stop, drop, shut em down, open up shop” simple rules to follow. Step1. Stop, sometimes you must stop everything. Drop= work on yourself. Shut em down and open up shop. I trademarked The Vibe Podcast! “You fucking right I did it” “Break it up and Dismantled” you damned right I did! I am so proud of myself for doing the right thing upon the knowledge of my father’s murder. Seems like for the past 38 years everyone knew but me. “Mind your business lady, nosy people get it too” I have no idea what made my sister send me those hurtful emails. Sometimes silence speaks volumes and those hurtful emails speak on her unhandled trauma. “Look at what you done started” her emails and lies on me has severed a relationship with my beloved little brother. He and I share the same father but he chose to believe them. I respect his decision but he’s been lied to and that’s a fact. Fortunately he hasn’t been in New York for a very long time so it’s easier to lie to him that it is to lie to me; 138th, 38 years ago with his own 38 speaks volumes.This is why fathers must be careful who they lay with and whom they chose as baby mama. My brother is well with in his right to be angry at our father and I respect his decision although it’s not a healthy choice I respect his need to stay away for his Wellness. Small piece of advice to the nosy folks, unless you’re going to help please mind your own business. “Another unsolved mystery” so they thought they could get away without telling me about my father??? God doesn’t allow such injustices people, took me 38 years but I solved the mystery and I am proud of myself for doing the right thing upon the knowledge. I surrendered my life to God and my blessings began. After the damage they have caused upon my life I can no longer stay quiet. Now I speak! “Talk is cheap” make sure you speak your truth! I’ve beyond proven myself and I know our future is bright. Couldn’t have done it without my poet, thank you X! The song, Slipping gets me emotional as it brings me back to my youth. “To live is to suffer, to survive justifies the meaning of suffering” Remember children do not ask to be born. We must respect, love and protect our children as they are blessings from God regardless of who their Parents are. “I know happy days are not far away” “imma be that seed that doesn’t need much to succeed” Please check out The Vibe Podcast YouTube channel, https://youtube.com/channel/UCb5TDi1J3KmMNjnOjCBi_eA due to greed there has been a lot of trauma caused upon my life. There’s no reason why I had to experience homelessness nor pay for my own education when there was so much money left for us. Did I mention my father was murdered on top? But I know happy days not far away. “Group homes and institutions prepared my N for jail” it’s a miracle that I am alive today. My mother constantly kicked me out of the house starting at the age of 14. She prepared me for a lifetime of misery. “Why ? was it my fault? Something I did?” To this day I don’t know what I have done to deserve this life and because I don’t know I must stay away. “I never gave a fuck about much but my dog” this is how I grew up in Yonkers, New York. Depression allowed me to ok situations and forget so much. I remember now and I will never ever forget this journey. “I’m slipping, I’m falling, I gots to get up so I can tear shit up” I hit rock bottom back in February. “ I got to do the right thing for shorty” and it’s an absolute honor to have changed my life for my children. God bless you DMX! Thank you for your God given talent, your words guided me in my darkest times as a youth and again not too long ago! I wish to make you proud and God bless the Hood! Yonkers home of the brave!
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Confessions
Gemini ♊️
Let’s give it up for Gemini! Hard working motherfuckers! An Air sign, communicative, intelligent and likes to deal on a mental plane. Quickly grasps ideas, can speak or write effectively. A great way to reinforce your ability to speak effectively is by Chakra Meditation particularly, Throat Chakra. Please follow my Online Botanica Natural Wellness Shop on Facebook! I share knowledge on healing naturally along with the word of God. Who doesn’t love Science, God and Nature? Let me give you a bit of information on Chakra Balancing. Chakra balancing is the process of restoring harmonious flow of energy across the Chakra System. There are pivotal points in your body that can become blocked due to stress and other ailments. The effect of a well balanced Chakra often translates into a feeling of over all well being, relaxation, centeredness, increased vitality and embodiment of oneself. Throat Chakra Meditation aides the Respitory System as well as your ability to express yourself efficiently. This can manifest in how we speak and live our lives. Gemini, if you’re going to talk.. make it worth my time.. no lies, no bullshit. Meditate then talk to me please! Your friend, Aries ♈️ Although Geminis are talkers, they can be a mutable sign. I believe this is why we know Geminis to be two faced. By the way, Aries don’t like mutable signs! Mutable signs are changeable, flexible and mentally explorative. Emphasis on intellectual activity and adaptable to environment. This is a wonderful quality Geminis! Gemini is the sign of the Twins in the Zodiac. The third sign of the Zodiac and the first to have human rather than an Animal symbol. Gemini at Work- They are chatty, curious and Mercurial nature of Gemini means that they are best suited to careers that give them lots of opportunities to keep learning new information and meeting with lots of people. They are not lovers of routine or sitting still for a long time. Reminds me of a beloved co-worker I once had. Rachel my Gemini peep from good ol Yonkers, New York! We were Receptionists at Section 8 or Cell Block 8 as I I like to refer to it and she got an e-mail from our boss stating that she needed to spend more time at her desk. At the moment not funny but as I study Astrology, this is hilarious! (The Office theme song suddenly plays in my head) Geminis are persuasive, generally great speakers, youthful and love multi tasking. Big facts! Unfortunately I had to work with quite a few Geminis in my day (Aries talk) but none of the Gemini bitches I worked with are lazy. They enjoy fast paced environments. Careers that would suit Gemini are; Scientists, Advertising Agent, Journalist, Writer, Teacher, Accountant, Storyteller, Entertainer, Radio or Podcast host. This is great news for Aries! On season 2 of The Vibe Podcast, we will be interviewing stay tuned as it will be fire! More details on that when we come back for round two! A Gemini boss can be difficult to work for due to their restless and unpredictable nature. Facts! I’ve had two and both were quite difficult to say the least. They will constantly be on the move. Gemini bosses are hugely likeable however, as they have a great sense of humor and are very gregarious. But they are generally quite emotionally detached and won’t want to be involved in any emotional dramas among employees. Big facts! I was trying to tell the Gemini boss of my Supervisor Mr. Kelly harassing me while I was trying to mourn my murdered father. No sympathy. I was trying to tell her that my own Mother had involvement or knowledge of my father’s murder, I got no sympathy and Mr. Kelly continued with his harassment on the job eventually leading to my employment ending over at Cell Block 8. Fortunately I have sinced Trademarked my company which will allow me to speak, write, Podcast on work place culture. Reminder, thank a Soldier as Freedom of Speech and Religion has been a blessing for me during this time. Our basic human rights are covered by the US Military. Whether it’s by land, sea or in the office these folks fight for our freedom every day and saying thank you goes a long way! But back to Gemini; Employees working for a Gemini can feel like a ball of confusion. Facts! But they are not the confused one.. tricky wording huh. Gemini get it together if you are in a leadership position at the work place. Folks, if you can live with changeability, fast pace then you will have fun with this boss. Facts until she chose the wrong side. Blessing in disguise for me however, since leaving that miserable job I have accomplished so much. Peace be on to them and their journey over at Cell Block 8. A Gemini employee does not like being confined in any way and will become very agitated if they feel hemmed in, which will make them ineffective. Geminis are likely to negotiate raises easily as they will always have a good argument as to why they deserve it. Hey, I can’t knock the hustle Gemini! As a co-worker, Gemini will be a lot of fun! This is true :) they talk circles around everyone they work with but will be the life and soul of the workplace and will probably organize work parties or events. Very true! Well known Gemini; Ms. Marilyn Monroe God bless you darling! I let my Astrology books guide me in my studies. I just open the book and start flipping pages, I landed on “working with Geminis” which I’ve had the unfortunate mishap of working for two Geminis at two different employments. My determination is this, you have to be social at the workplace but guard yourself. Do not turn into a social butterfly, you cannot do this in a leadership position. As this leadership position will require that you do your work but also discern what truly matters when an employee related issue may arise. When someone is telling you of a Murder and that they are being harassed while trying to cope, this is the time to turn on your Human Resources skills as the leader not butterfly.. Butterflies are flaky in nature if you watch them flutter.. a true leader is not flaky. Remember that fact Gemini and you will do well in your leadership roles, otherwise demote yourself. Thank you for taking the time on reading my article remember, Buddha does not downplay Astrology. You can use your Zodiac sign as a guide in becoming a better you! Wellness matters darling! Of course there is a special meaning to your birth and studying Astrology helps you understand how.
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Futurism
Education & Self-Improvement
Had you asked me a year ago where would I be today, the answer would be that I’d still be working at Section 8. A year ago I had no intentions of taking my writing seriously. Podcasting was not a serious thought in my mind a year ago I was a struggling single mother. A receptionist at a job I hated honestly. I had worked hard to rise in the ranks in hospitality, to lose it all and end up working at Section 8? What I didn’t lose was my education. My name is Diana and I am a high school drop out. Something within me still sought education. I got my GED and I have always loved writing but never took it beyond my journals. I have always led a wild life, despite the wildness I pursued education. I went to college to become a Nurse, then got pregnant. The struggle was real so I had to give up that dream. Now with child I had to what I had to do in my mind to get by and in my mind that meant Stripping (Exotic Dancing and then some) I was introduced to this life by my son’s father. In looking back as that life is behind me and I am well now after many years of therapy and baptized born again as of 2017. I cannot believe that was actually me. I ok’d trauma my whole life but no more since the knowledge of my father’s murder. Since I stopped ok’ing trauma my blessings began. It took many years of hard work and I am proud that I continued pursuing my education despite the madness in my life and can say this.. they can take your money, your job and even your child. But they can never take away your education and that is the biggest flex. In 2015 I began a relationship with someone who I thought cared about me, he may have cared but he genuinely cared more about himself, his cars,his house and his image more than me. I was in a manipulative relationship or Karmic Relationship. Through this relationship I lost a very good job and my zeal for hospitality. However it is through this relationship that I found God so I have no regrets. After losing my hospitality job I couldn’t land a decent job so I went back to school and in 2017 got on the deanslist at Berkeley College for Healthcare Administration. That relationship failed and thank God it did. I have always wanted a loving family life and thought if I subject myself I would get what I want. Wrong. Manipulators take they don’t give. Manipulators control, they don’t give. They will do things to “help” but you will never get what you want. This relationship was a learning lesson in all that I do not want. I do no regret this Karmic Relationship as it showed me all the ugly and dark parts of me and my so called family. I am grateful I never gave up on education despite the madness. John 16:13 says this, Once you give your life to God the Holy Spirit will guide you to the truth. My whole life I mourned my father. I could not speak of him without breaking down. I never got a chance to be with my father, I was only one year old when he was murdered and all I knew was that he paid for my mother to get her tubes untied and that I was a product of an affair. My father left us money and my mother collected our Social Security Survivors benefits for herself. Sure we were “spoiled” coming up but with our own money that’s not really spoiling someone darling but to the tune of $108,000? No never happened. No reason I should have experienced homelessness nor pay for my own education. Now that I know everything on my father’s murder I am proud that I never gave up on education and I am most proud that I decided to take the dip and get baptized in 2017. Through the grace of God I was guided to the truth and I have had to make life changes as a result. There have been difficulties in making these life changes but the blessings are greater than my difficulties. We applied for a Trademark in the production of Podcasts, entertainment and the list goes on in what we will be doing in the future. I have done this with the help of children only, so it has all been funded by me. I am back in the Hospitality industry and I am sharing our story which makes me happy. I know one day my Podcasting and writings will lead me to the big screen which is why I say this, never give up on education and never give up on your dreams under any circumstances. Never. You will be blessed, guaranteed as it happened to me. We were recently ranked 33% in the self-improvement category in Azerbaijan! I do not know much about this country except that it’s between Asia & Europe and I say, THANK YOU! I know our hard work will pay off one day. Sharing our story in healing naturally from trauma is really important for me especially for our youth. I do not want children following my footsteps in temptation. I want little girls to know just how powerful they really are and through seeking an education and God I was able to not only solve my father’s murder mystery but also start a production company! If I can do this, so can you! Shout out to the kids helping me! Mia Isabella, you are my reason. Never change who you are, thank you for being you as it has motivated me not to fail but to succeed in gigantic proportions. I do this all for you! You are so special baby, one day I will write a book just about you. You’re my Angel here on Earth and I thank God for you every day. My son Gabe, co-hosts with me on The Vibe Podcast at times and he’s also hosted on his own. You are talented Gabe and have become my protector. I am so proud of you, thank you for being there for me in my darkest time. God bless you always! To Mulan Sang, currently working on our logo, I thank you. I haven’t told you yet but you are most definitely part of the vibe! You are a talented artist and you will go far in this world. I pray that all your wishes and dreams come true! Our logo is turning out beautifully and it’s all thanks to you. God bless you always! This logo will open the door to amazing opportunities and I hope we can do lots together as this company grows. I could not have done it without these children and this is why I say never give up on Education & Self-Improvement.
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Confessions
The Vibe Horoscope
Upon the knowledge of my father’s murder, I decided to absolutely change my life for the better. I dove deep into Religion because I could not understand how bad people can go to church. I study the Quran, Torah, Rastafari , Buddhism, Hinduism, Native American Spirituality and Crystal Healing. Along with learning about my Taino culture, yes the Taino is still here. I’m happy to report that the Taino Indian is not extinct as thought by our ignorant society. Ideally someone like me would possess and show their skills to their elders and gain knowledge from them. Unfortunately due to my life, I do not have any elders to lean on. I am grateful for Social Media! I found a Taino Spirituality & Culture group on Facebook which inspired me to create the Taino Book Club! Give it a like! In my studies, I have come to learn that Buddha does not downplay Astrology. Of course there is special meaning to your birth. I was raised Catholic and most folks don’t believe in this Science of the Stars & Planets that have been around for centuries. Well I do! Astrology is a wonderful guide in how the be the best you. I see it like this, if we are God’s children we come equipped with a guide or instructions on how to be. Sorta like when you buy an action figure. The toy comes with specific instructions and describes what it can do. I like to simplify things to make it more understandable. Your Zodiac sign is your guide/instructions on how to be the best you! I am an Aries born of Aries parents. Took me 39 years to get it together, Aries can be a little cray cray if carried away. We are natural born leaders and with that comes loyalty. Unfortunately I have had to learn that I will not get the same loyalty I put out in return. I’m ok with that now :) took a lot of work but I am proud of the person I have become. I randomly select signs and I study them for upcoming episodes on The Vibe Podcast. This is an Aries quality, I do not go in the order of the Zodiac. I pick and choose as I please.. go Aries! Today I have selected Aquarius! Aries BFF.. Aquarius, an Air sign ruled by Saturn and Uranus. Although the symbol is water, what the glyph actually represents is waves of energy. The symbol is pouring Spirit or Energy down from the Heavens. Aries loves Aquarius. I happen to work with a few and have an absolute ball each time. The polarity of this sign is Leo. Gemstones are Obsidian (a great protective stone) & Sapphire. Aquarius rules the Calves, Ankles and Nervous System. Sometimes seen as the weirdos of the Zodiac as they are unpredictable, inventive & original in nature. They often feel alienated from those around them. They’re sometimes tempted to betray their convictions to fit in. Don’t do it Aquarius! Owning feelings you’re not entitled to could lead to many mistakes in life darling. Energy works in mysterious ways so we must be mindful when it comes to our feelings. Aquarius path is to embody their personal truth. Being honest with yourself first really matters in wellness. Famous Aquarius, Mr. Bob Marley God bless you! Aquarius duality is Masculine, element is Air. Of course I have a Natural Rx for you Aquarius! Go to the Mountains and just be.. if you live in New York please make it your business to visit Bear Mountain. Absolutely beautiful scenery that will give you the energy and relaxation you desire. Take deep breaths and in being in your element, you will be thinking more clearly and make better life choices. Try it Aquarius and tell me how you feel. Email me at [email protected] tell me how you’re feeling my Zodiac BFF! Remember Aquarius is assertive, independent, progressive, analytical, original & inventive. My Aquarius gang has strong dislikes & firm opinions. Fun fact on Uranus- Ancient Greek Sky God. First ruler of the Universe. It was the first modern planet to be discovered in 1781. In Astrology, Uranus is the planet of change, disruption, the unconventional and the unexpected. It rules invention, Aerodynamics and Science. So if you want to change, Aquarius all you have to do is look to Uranus! Aquarius symbol is the water bearer dispensing a gift that flows freely and equally to all. Representing creation and the giving of life. You freely give out the truth to the world. Amen for that! Dominant keyword- “I know” have confidence in yourself Aquarius, you got this. Aquarius is the sign of hopes and dreams, friends and wishes. Aquarians tend to be idealistic humanitarians who are concerned with larger issues of the world but remain personally detached in their own relationships. Por que Aquarius? It’s absolutely ok to put yourself first! Parts of the body ruled by Aquarius- The circulatory system, shins and ankles. Aquarius people are prone toward Ankle sprains and breaks. Also varicose veins ans hardening of the arteries. Care for your energy! Lucky day- Wednesday and your lucky numbers are 1 & 7. Magical Birthstone- Amethyst, brings faithfulness in love & bestows the gift of foreknowledge. Dangers for Aquarius are these; since you are innovative, unconventional and sometimes eccentric you are therefore attacked by narrow minded people. I know about that life. Aquarians also have a tendency to get into unusual situations and take up with oddball individuals. Guard your circle darling, whom you allow in really matters so be careful in that regard. Your most likeable trait is, friendliness. Aquarians are visionaries, you like being different. Aries loves this! I hope you find this piece of information on my Aquarius gang helpful in being a better you. I’ve seen so much darkness in this world, rather than giving up I dared to be different. In doing so I have been blessed. I am happy to share knowledge. Thank you for taking the time in reading this article and enjoy The Vibe! The Vibe of knowledge:)
By The Vibe Podcast 2 years ago in Futurism