Before you date me, I want you to know that I am damaged. I'm broken. I'm weak. I have flaws, so do you. As many times as I have broken, I have put myself back together.
Have you felt so lost without someone. It's like you can't even do one simple task without thinking about them. Just when you think you are finally over it, moving on and regaining yourself, feeling alive again. Something switches and everything that was hits you all over again. The more I try to cut him and keep him out of my life only seems to be making things worse.
When harmless cleaning routines, hygiene and list making behaviours once deemed to be positive implementations into life, turn into the catalyst of unhealthy, ritualistic and life threatening behaviour...
... Please give me the respect to read this entire message when u have enough free time to take it in. Don’t skip over parts and don’t be reading it like you think like your better than me, or have done little wrong and that I’m the one exaggerating. Please know that I am beyond serious with everything I say and that I have never been this emotionally unstable before in my life. I want to let you know the way I’m feeling because you are the only person I still ever care about. Even though I know I shouldn’t be sending you this because it’s not really your issue anymore, but I need to.