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Where Have My Dreams Gone?
It all started when I was a young girl. I've always wanted to portray the "pretty girl on screen." Whoever it was, white or black...I wanted to be...her. A far off, never reaching version of myself that only lives in my mind. At least that's what I'm realizing now. Dreaming about becoming an actress and promising people that they will see me on the big screen one day seemed to drive me. It seemed to give me a purpose, that I was going to be one of the biggest, most fabulous A list, award-winning actress and have all this money to spend, save, and use. My goal by 18/21 was to have my dream job as an actress, at 23 get married, then an 25 have kids and 27 work on television as I reach "retirement". Like WTF? I'm 26 right now and none of those things have come true yet. Matter fact, I currently still live with my parents and I still feel like I'm 24 or something. I've always wanted to live in the city and to think that because I dreamed it of living in some penthouse in Manhattan by my 20 somethings or because I pinned a photo of a gorgeous rich cliff hanging house on Pinterest that I was going to magically have it. What I realized about a year or two ago is that half of my dreams were just dreams. I had no action plan behind it. And all YOUR fantasies will remain fantasies unless you actually get up and physically and kinetically do something about it.
By taybae's world4 years ago in Motivation