Part of my life turning upside down was learning I have both a rare health condition called Transverse Myelitis as well as Multiple Sclerosis. Neither condition can be cured, the Multiple Sclerosis may or may not get worse, and I now need to help sustain my current health by injecting medication. Having been someone who has never relied on chemicals to heal my ails, has anxiety over not feeling in control of my body, and has a strong phobia of needles, it has been quite a personal challenge. The process of finding the right medication has been trial and error, and the first brand of medication, unbeknownst to me, was progressively making me very unwell. I was not aware until it hit acute crisis in July. I had to be immediately taken off the drug (and another) to bring me back to safety. It was quite a shocking experience, especially to learn that the medicine I was being asked to trust was more harmful than the illness I was doing my best to manage. I had been asked in consultation how things were going and did not know at the time that the medication was making me so unwell. In the process of the change, I also discovered that the medicine had been hugely limiting my physical capacity each day. My quality of life had been reducing. It has taken a couple of months of very tough struggle to pull myself back from the brink, it was an incredibly awful experience. I've changed to a different drug (albeit taken more frequently), but I have begun recuperating and cannot quite believe the remarkable difference. This first stage of the travel (aside from the art project) was to support my recuperation and also to learn my natural capacity now that I was no longer affected by the previous medication. It has been a gift, widened my awareness; and in the end, I am so fortunate and grateful to still be here in this life to experience it. It brought me to reflecting on how much we as humans are vulnerable on our own. When we are born, we need to rely on something external to be nurtured, nourished, and safe, else we are easy prey to the indiscriminate. Unlike other mammals and animals, we are born incapable of looking after ourselves in a self-protective way and this continues for "years" as opposed to weeks or months. We are truly at the mercy of our environment. As we grow, we need guidance to learn what is safe and what is not, how to conduct ourselves in order to survive (and during this time, we need those who are doing the guiding to be in good standing themselves, else we may not get all of what we need to grow, survive, and thrive). We are vulnerable to misinformation, projected fears, emotions of others, mistakes, manipulation, to being attacked, and to neglect and other forms of abuse without having the ability to stop it, walk away, and keep ourselves safe. Most of the time, we don't even know that we are not safe. As we age, we have to use our experiential knowledge and natural instinct to keep us safe. If we become sick, there are many forms of treatment from holistic to pharmaceutical, but we need to rely on information given to us by others to tell us what is best; we can't just innately know... We can try and see for ourselves, but sometimes that's safe and sometimes it isn't, sometimes we don't know something has affected us dangerously until much later. As we become older and less able to understand and discern what is supportive for us, we need to rely on others yet again to keep surviving because we are vulnerable. We need to rely on others.