All my life I have been crippled with anxiety. I was unable to handle what normal little kids could do- going to school, having sleepovers, etc. I remember going to a book store with my dad and found a “how to” book for braiding bracelets. I found that when I was focusing on creating these bracelets, I felt calm, I felt safe, I felt normal. The word “calm” or act of BEING calm was always a challenge for me. Soon I found I was born a creative and it helped my anxiety. Being a creative, I was finally able to discover more and more talent within myself, especially when it came to making jewelry. My hands became and have been my salvation, helping me to heal emotionally with what they can do physically. My right hand is my dominant tool. I’ve used my hands to create jewelry, learn massage, be a cosmetologist, a makeup tattoo artist- the list goes on. Down the side of my right arm I have a T.S Eliot quote written in my mother’s handwriting. We share the same crippling emotions of anxiety, and creativity was one of her outlets as well. I remember when she would get anxious she would draw. My mom created beautiful doodles and elegant, random words- just to calm herself. Of course she was the perfect person for the job in designing my tattoo. The quote reads “Anxiety is the handmaiden of creativity.” Now I can keep my mother’s creativity with me always. I’ve used a negative emotion to create beautiful things, and my tattoo is always a reminder of that.