Growing up is inevitable, there is absolutely no way around it. Unfortunately there are many obstacles thrown at us as we grow - although these aren't always bad they're usually thrown at us for learning experiences. There are many nights that I catch myself hiding out in my room after a long day of work, or school - for me, these are obstacles. Sometimes I'll spend a whole day in my room, barely leaving or interacting with a house full of people. For me, after a day of forced interaction with people - I need some time to myself to rejuvenate. There are days that I feel really good, but my anxiety is always with me.
I was 17 at the time. A typical teenager, going through usual teenage things; high school drama, stress from school, being traumatized from my favorite character dying in my favorite TV show. Graduating from high school, and having no idea what to do next. You know, the typical teenage crisis’s that made me think my life was ending. I call this point of my life, my pre-midlife crisis.
There are so many people that come into your life, and barely leave any marks. But you on the other hand, you have left footprints. You, my greatest friend, have been stomping all over my heart for the last three years that I've known you. The three years that have felt like a lifetime. I don't know how it happened, but you and I just clicked and before you knew it we were telling each other all about our lives. You were never just a friend, you were more like a sister, parent, mentor, literally my best friend soulmate. There have been so many people in and out of my life, but with you it has always been different. When everybody else left the picture, you were the only one still standing there cheering me on and giving me more hope. That was when I knew you were a real friend, my best. You're like the glue that holds us together when we feel like everything is falling apart. Thank you for being my best. I'm not sure which one of us started that phrase, "best." But it's short and simple to describe this unique little friendship of ours. All of our pinky promises we've made to each other over the years, and yes I still promise that if you're not married by the age of 40, we'll move in together with my dog :) Because what better way to be alone, than to be alone with your best friend?