Samuel Bitner
Bio
I want to share the energy of my writings. It comes from an infinite place I listen to often.
Stories (44/0)
lonely
Look no one is going to say it. They all will just pretend one way or another. The truth is you're alone kid. Your parents can't save you. Your friend won't either. They will love you without doubt but in the end you're just loosing little bits of yourself day in and day out. Eventually if you do not protect that light within you will most certainly have nothing to cherish.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Humans
Forsaken
It is difficult isn't it? Trying to be still when you're vibrating out of control. You feel every ounce of blood begin to boil as you become closer to the turbulence. You can taste death and all that it brings with it. You take deeper breaths trying to maintain the illusion of control within a storm of chaos. I know the truth as I stare into the frigid eyes of a man who was ripped from our timeline. How it abuses my soul. My fists clenched tight and I am shivering in the heat again. Where were you when I ripped god out of the sky? Where were you when I wore its crown and drowned the devil? I do not recall your courage back then. I do not recall your need for grace then.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Poets
trigger finger
I see you again. I thought I buried you deep enough to forget. We both knew you would never stop didn't we? Those nights I would tear into you. All I knew was hatred and the need to feed the violence. How could you not be broken by such a vicious cycle? You would scream frantic lyrics of finding god in the mud. I just kept your head under water. What would it truly take to kill you?
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Journal
self talk
We came from a world that slowly turned gray. As if watching time end like a dripping faucet. A frigid and slow crawl towards the infinite void of a blackhole. I pulled at the chains of my ancestors insisting on turning around the cycle. It would bend but it never could break. Here we learned the lesson of leaving behind the decaying weight. Even if it meant cutting off the hope implied.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Futurism
rise of the titan
I am no longer naive to the past. I open the third eye once blind to the opportunity of the new world. Physical is temporary as the internal is eternal. I walk like thunder. Crashing through mountains as if I could notice kings bowing. I am here to create outside of the realm we stare right through. Warriors sent here to crucify the nightmare. The illusions that rob the young of their thoughts. I am filled with the air of titans. The ones of the fractured timeline. Bleeding into this place like fever dreams. Contagious and infecting all the ones levitating. The light is blinding. A turbulence you can not ignore. Why should you? Where are you going? Do you know? I have decided what I am and where I am going. In fact I have become it and I wander seeking others to help me build an empire. My why is deeply rooted into my soul. A princess, an oracle, a brother, and the versions of me from infinite wisdoms. I no longer wear the mask seeking to be adored. I am simply here to illuminate. Myself and others who choose to see me.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Humans
Inside the forge
I have entered apart of my life with a new awareness and ability to control my perception. The mindset is crucial as the vessel burns in the depths of the night upon the water. I take a breath and focus on the present as I anticipate the visions of the past to come crashing into view. Before I learned to burn bridges to ensure progress forward I had to collect the memories to utilize building a foundation.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Motivation
A reflection on not saying goodbye
I admit I could have cherished you more before last November. I did my best with the time I thought I had. I guess I did have. You taught me lessons in your profound silence. We all see how your ripple kept us together like glue. I do not regret who I was but I can safely say I am fucking full of sorrow I cant physically show you who I am becoming and where I am going. You were there for me in some dark times. You never judged me at least never out loud. You just witnessed my storms and shared the laughter I let surface. You were there before the crucible. You were playful and that allowed me to be a bit more like myself when I always felt I had to be a rock. A shut in of emotions. You were relentless in who you were and how you lived. I respect your life time. I hope you feel the shrine I make for you in my soul.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Humans
Entering the new kingdom
I am infinite. So are you. I give and I will take. Are you with me? I turn my back on the burning ship we sailed to get here. There is no going back because we must endure moving forward. It is within every atom of my existence that I must conquer myself and arise. I see now how blind a man can become if allowed to suffocate in the gallows. I wipe the blood from my mouth. I feel the dirt beneath my fingernails. A reminder of the mud I came from. I smell the burning fields of pain and its wretched truths of unlimited decay. I do not falter though. I keep focus on the must. That which doesn't end me will know my name.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Poets
ceremony of grief
I walked through days turning into weeks turning into months and years filled with doom. I watched roses bleed dry and die in vain. It left scars on my soul like bullet holes you can't ignore. You hear the creaking bones in the abandoned halls. You notice how the clocks stopped turning as the burning in your ears wreak havoc upon the consciousness. I watched the reflection change. Morphing into decay and lingering in sorrow hoping it claims me like death. Every time I drifted close enough something ripped me from the wounds. I had to suffer it. Again and again. There were soldiers there to hold the fort as I recovered from the burns and the poisons. I would barely hang on and yet they never flinched. Now I see clearly the energy being exchanged. I watched tears drip from the cross within a room full of demons and sin. Drowning in the crucifixion of defeat and deceit. I stared into the oblivion of voids multiplying and collapsing.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Poets
I must go
I stand at the edge again. The place you and I would stare off into the horizon together. Talking of distant futures and ideas. You always kept me aware of how simple things could be. However tonight I watch the wooden ship burning and sailing away into that horizon. The flames roar of your honor and your ability to keep us together. I realize as my grief calms that I placed a burden upon me to carry you forward. We both know now that I can not. That I have to let you go. I wipe your ashes from my face and take a deep breath. Leaning forward I close my eyes to fall from safety. I always felt at home in the chaos.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Poets
The focus
I don't know what it is about this place inside my mind that I can only find in my truest silence. It isn't quite meditation and it isn't any mask that I have to wear. I like to think of it as my truest form within this vessel. A place non of asked for but all somehow obtained. Sometimes I remember how much I fought this place inside me. How awful it felt when I was in my darkest hours. As a kid I was innocent. we all were at some point. I witnessed a lot of pain and in this I did not know how capable I was of feeling others suffering. I feel it all the time. I always had a fear people around me could feel my pain. The hatred it created in my chest and the violence that was born there. I see the binary coding of all the energy flowing clearly now.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Motivation
A war
I will admit to anyone I am in a paradigm shift. It is intense and it is very real. I walked through a door and I can not return. I must keep going forward in developing the man I want to be. I am driven by my love for those closest to me. My conquest is to acquire the wealth of health and money and spread it. In order to help others I must learn and understand how to help myself.
By Samuel Bitner3 years ago in Motivation