Though I chose to be mute because of an abusive family (read: Choosing to Be Mute under my profile), I didn’t learn to be helpless. Rather miraculously, I was hopeful that I’d be able to escape home and thus mutism.
Most people don’t believe that I spent a great portion of my life mute. Some think I’m a little too articulate and experienced to have previously been mute. Others think I don’t look like I’ve ever been through any type of family abuse and argue against me, declaring that I grew up from a healthy and nurturing family. Such people are the reason why mentally abused people question their own feelings and experiences, feel like they are a fraud, and thus never get help. I’m so glad I’ve learned to stop being submissive despite my roots and upbringing of being raised to be one.
I am really proud of myself. Around the end of September, I did something that I have always avoided: telling my therapist I want to end sessions and pursue other means of recovery. I have had such temptations since the first 2 months I met her because I felt like I was hearing the same redundant things I heard from every other therapist I’ve ever had. (Read: Explaining My Therapy Experiences)
I have wasted a lot of money in my lifetime, and it was all for impulse purchases that I thought I needed to achieve a certain goal. Many times, it is the same goals as the rest of this world like maintaining a pretty body figure, getting to the next step in a career, and other universal goals.
As I have said in Part 1 of this series (here’s the link), I started my job as a CDPAP caregiver about 30 days ago. CDPAP is the acronym for Consumer Directed Personal Assistance Program, a New York State Medicaid-funded program that pays a family member and/or a friend for taking care of a consumer (a sick/ill/disabled person). Getting approved took 8 months, and it should’ve taken nowhere that long. Read on to understand the differences between CDPAP from any other homecare program. I am emphasizing this because you don’t want to waste time or money by making unnecessary mistakes.
After Part 1 & Part 2, you can tell that I have a lot to say about preparing to apply for CDPAP before you get to doing it. This is because there is so much about the application that is just left unknown by the health insurance companies, fiscal intermediaries, and the New York State Department of Health’s (NYSDOH) website. For reference, check out how vague NYSDOH is about the application process: link.