What I can tell you is that I have always been a daydreamer and my imagination is my alter ego that runs like a wildling. I love her! Full of random thoughts most of the time and always, always 100% real talk, no filter.
You either give because you genuinely care or because you have a very clear memory of when YOU received much-needed help and wish to return that blessing. When you are in desperate times and someone steps up to help, you have a moment to breathe without struggling. Even if all that is given is a cup of coffee and like so many people, I enjoy when the holiday flavors reach Starbucks or Coffee bean. I look forward to my first cup of Pumpkin Spice Latte or Butter Cookie latte. There have been quite a few times where that was not even in the books for me but this was not one of them. I had successfully ordered a Pumpkin Spice Latte and a Peppermint Mocha Latte (for my assistant) and was exiting our offramp when I spotted him.
Internal 330am Silent Alarm
This is the third night in a row that my eyelids flew open at 3:30 in the morning! What is going on? I’m not tired and I am rudely rushed out of a great dream. I mean these dreams are so real I feel like I am really really there. So why ruin them by waking me up? Well, now that I am up I might as well get up and make some tea.
I Bid You Farewell
Donald J. Trump, Historical you will forever remain in the eyes of almost every human alive on this planet. I’m sure this brings about one of your rare, but famous, smiles. And I am positive that you have puffed up that chest so proud. You should be. You accomplished everything you set out to do. You made everyone pay attention to you 100% of the time and your ratings were through the roof! People chanted your name from the four corners of these United States. Stand up and pat yourself on the back Donald.
Do you have those moments when you hear something or you are listening to someone and suddenly you are stricken with WhatTheHell face? And WhatTheHell has a few different tones to it like WhatTheHell are you doing, which is a quick knee jerk reaction because you just cannot believe they are even doing it. Then there is that WhatTheHell look that gradually travels across your face as you are listening to someone explain what they did and how shocked they were at the reaction/response and the whole time in your mind you are thinking they should have expected exactly what you got. Or how about the WhatTheHell are you saying because it is making absolutely no sense and you wish that you simply shake the shit out of them and then maybe they might make sense. The most common one stuck on my face is the WhatTheHell is wrong with you look as if the other person hit me with a level of ignorance, stupidity or absolute selfishness. I bet you can relate to one, some or all of these that I mentioned, can’t you?
I 4got How 2 Breathe
It has been half-a-century and you’d have thought by now I knew how to do this shit! I mean, seriously people, don’t agree that by the age of 50 you should have a TON of common sense shit figured out, right? That’s what I thought until this very moment as I sit here and type this to you on the third day of March of the year 2020, I forgot how to BREATHE…………….
Meet Doodle.. Bean.. & Bear..
I would like to introduce to you three of the most amazing characters you will ever meet in your lifetime! Before I introduce them, I’m G-Mah, at least this is my prefered name. Grandma, Memaw, GiGi, all seemed so old and rather inappropriate for someone like me. I was the chosen mommy to raise Doodle, Bean and Bear. We enjoyed every moment of life together, even the not so great ones, and I got to watch them grow into the amazing grown ups they are today. Each one of them has their own special traits, talents and magic that brings so much happiness to the people around them. I hope that one day you will get to meet them but for now I can tell you all about them.
You Are Always ONLY 50% Right
If you find yourself in an altercation with anyone, there is no need to wonder whether you are right or not. You are always right! Yes, that is what I said, YOU are always right when recalling details for argumentative purposes. At least that is what I have learned in my recent studies. scientists say the human brain will only retain that which it deems necessary to retain, and that is about fifty percent of what "actually happened". Yes, only % therefore you ARE right when it comes to the % you retained. Your mind keeps what it believes is valid to you and the person you are attempting to have this discussion with, will do the same. To clear this all up for you, an argument will not reach a point of resolution when two people stand firmly in THEIR version. Suggested by a variety of therapists and gurus' I have been studying, it is wise to simply hear it all, pluck out the facts and simply focus on them.
The Black Sheep
The cliche’ that is so commonly used, “I knew at a young age I was different,'' could be used in this situation but that would be a lie. As a child you hear all sorts of stories of what you did or did not do and some of them seem a bit far fetched from where you are standing but nonetheless, those who were around you claim it to be true. I heard many of these and looking back now I can say that I can definitely see myself doing these things. I remember my parents sharing a story about me packing up my Radio Flyer wagon with all that was important to me and dragging it out the front door of our home in Massachusetts.