The Girl and the Curse
CHAPTER ONE: Sadness Ragnar was a girl that had the usual characteristics about her: try's to be kind, mostly works hard, and was mostly responsible. Except, she also had the trait about her that was at the center of it all: Real compassion.
I Will Never Give Up My Self-control, Again
Your getting excited... You know that what your doing is what your supposed to be doing. You've been PROCRASTINATING, for, if we were to be 100% honest... longer than you wanted. And that PROCRASTINATION has been what, in my experience, procrastinating with never reaching the stars and all that I dream. But why? Why, when I have 100% ability to do so?
Back in the day, I was just a typical kid, doing my thing, as a young part African, Spanish, and English woman! But I was judged at basically all-angles because of this, sadly! But, not really sad, because I have always been upright in heart and that's never stopped me from choosing to be a kind human, and shooting to always do that, no matter how hard it is or how right I "think" I am. No matter the crap social media screams at my mind day and night, no matter what. I mean, shoot, the internet barely existed 25 years ago! Honestly, just writing that last sentence down brings into my mind a different perspective about life. Why do me and all my friends spend our lives on the internet doing nothing much of productivity? Why don't we use the internet like as an outlet for good deeds, start organizations and fight for what we say we actually believe in? That sounds WAY better to me than 6 hours of wasting my life away scrolling or watching random videos, which is why I I now have a set amount of time, daily, that I allow myself to "distract" and do whatever I feel like online. That is why I LOVE the idea behind this challenge, it engaged my mind to see the other side of mindlessness: acts of love/good deeds.
I can choose to share love with whomever, whenever, however, and be a human full of good deeds! My first big accomplishment as a sober young lady started with when I wrote 40ish encouraging letters to all the people I was in Treatment with, by sitting by the mailboxes and reading their names (since I tend to forget those), and one by one writing away. That was honestly one of the funnest and soul-satisfying experiences I have ever had. It felt like the blink of an eye, sitting on that lounger and thinking intently into what I observed each individual needed to hear, or motivation. I used my birds-eye view to discern what each person needed to hear, and it has started me on a journey to letter writing. I will actually sit in my comfy chair and quiet space, while brainstorming ways to help people. So far I have come up with ideas like this that are beneficial and engaging, as well as buying and handcrafting gifts for people at random times. The number of people who have came up to me after receiving a letter from me, with tears welt up in their eyes, and most tell me about the same thing: "Handcrafting a letter for me was the LAST thing I expected someone to do, but you have motivated me by it!"
2021: A year I will make Victorious
MY 2021 VISION You will never accomplish your true desires until you continuously make the first step, everyday, to start!
2020 Quarantine Playlist to Stay MOTIVATED
Everyone has been affected by Covid this year. No matter where you originate from. Cheers to discovering good vibing music to enjoy.
To Love and Question
Ahh... I am a strange one because I do not eat the common household delights such as sugary treats for the Holidays, anymore. I eat amazing, delicate, food that is made with ACTUAL maple syrup (the pure kind) Most people don't even know what that is in my experience. I just began this in 2020 by the way, I had to create change. But I understand, everyone loves to do things in a common pattern with the world that surrounds them, and sugar is one of them. I just like to do things uh... differently! Yes, I love all cookies. Yes, I enjoy sugar. Yes, I am a beast of a cook and when I throw my self into the comfort and serenity perhaps, of creating something from scratch I get a surge of energy that I chase and it is comforting. So why do I need to put more fat storage in my body just for a quick bite of happiness that does not last? Being free is what matters. And personally I have discovered that maple syrup goes down oh so nice... and it makes everything taste like sugar anyways.
For myself, and many others I have spoken to, 2020 has been a year of many new ideas looked-at in the right perspective. I run through the forest, and I breeze past the trees, looking for something to fill my deepest longings, to create meaning in a purposeless-driven world, where purpose has become only about the paycheck. "Now, hand me your heart."