So, of course, if you have a child you are someone who is or has been sexually active, unless you're the main character in a soap opera. However, let's assume you are not. This also means that there is a good chance you like sex, may I even dare to say you love it? Well, I do. I love it. The only time in my life I did not like sex was when I was pregnant. But now that I am not and my hormones have more or less sorted themselves out, it is definitely one of the top things on my mind. Except there seems to be this problem with getting to have sex. It is a one-year-old, 25 pound human who wont leave us alone long enough to do anything.
I recently started watching a docuseries about sex and love around the world. Living in a first world country myself, I find it interesting to look at how other cultures live and the way in which they look at sex in particular.
The worst part is that I wanted to leave. I planned on leaving, I had it all set up, I was going to get out. Start again, have someone I could really rely on. Instead, I got pregnant…. Whoops. Just one too many drinks that night got me in bed with him. Weird because I never slept with him anymore. Didn’t want too, why would I want too? The way he treated me? No one would want too.
Some people say you only get one great love in your life, maybe that’s true for some, but not for all. I think you can have many great loves, but only one true love. I didn’t use to think this, I was sure my first great love would be the only one I ever had. He was everything, handsome, funny, he spoiled me, and made me feel like I was the only person in the whole world who meant anything. I guess it’s funny that at the same time he was making some other girl feel the same. I’m sure he told her how amazing she was, how the moon made her eyes glisten when he looked at them. How she made him feel like he was capable of anything, I know this because he said the same to me.
A few years ago I was in the relationship of my dreams, with a man who was perfect. He was the love of my life and we were gloriously happy. He was the one who I fully believed I was going to spend the rest of my life with. We had made a five year plan and knew what we both wanted and when we wanted it. There was nothing we couldn't get through together...