I’m a wife, mom, student, dancer, youth leader and a survivor of anorexia, attemped suicide, and trauma. I am passionate about using my writing to encourage and inspire others to travel through the struggles of today with hope for tomorrow.
I saw the lanky legged colt with the fire red coat staring at me from the pasture. I was there to buy an adult horse that would be good for my experience level... which was close to zero. However, this little colt demanded my attention and I soon realized that this young, less than spectacular horse was going to be mine. I didn't care that I wouldn't be able to ride him, or that I knew nothing about training a horse; I just knew that this was my horse and I was his person. I saw myself in him... my 12 year old self often felt out of place and without purpose.
Recovery During the Holidays
Dear Loved Ones, The holidays are a beautiful time to be with family, reflect on all the things we are thankful for, and vision cast for the next year. However, for someone recovering or in recovery from an eating disorder, this time of year can be riddled with anxiety. You see, gatherings with family and friends are great, but they almost always come with things that make recovery even harder than it is... an insane amount of eating/food, lots of talk about food being good and bad (and how you're going to gain weight because of it), and plenty of comments about your recovering loved one's body and weight....
The Power Of Saying No... To KNOW Yourself
People don’t like to hear the word “no”. Even at a young age, rebellion wells up in our hearts as temper tantrums echo through the isles of the grocery store when mama says, “no cookies today”. It’s a natural reaction for us because our sinful nature is natural for us to indulge in. Because of the negative reaction people have to the word no, people pleasers and those with dreadfully low self-esteem tend to always say “yes” even when it drains the very life out of them day after day, decision after decision. I was one of those people. My answers to questions were never truly my own, they were always what I perceived was expected from me. I wanted to be who people wanted me to be; I was a chameleon who adapted to my environment and the personalities around me instead of discovering my own. Some things were good, but they weren’t ME. This blanketed my entire life: preferences, beliefs, responses, and actions. So here I am at 30 years old, not knowing who I am, what I want, or where I want to go in life. Well, at least I was….
I often find myself seeing lessons and messages in day to day happenings and relate them to our life's journey as human beings. Call it a curse, call it a blessing... I don't know, but when I notice these things, I'm compelled to write, so that is precisely what I'm doing.
Asking Science: What IS Pluto?
The universe is a complex, mysterious, vast, and often intimidating place to explore both physically and academically. There are so many different opinions and views on how it came to existence, how old (or young) it is, if it has a beginning or an end, if we should further explore it or if funds and resources are better spent elsewhere, and if there is life somewhere other than on planet Earth. Speaking of planets, there are specific qualifications to classify the many masses in space… There are planets, moons, stars, and asteroids amongst other less documented masses and orbiting matter. As scientific as the study of space is, we still cannot decide on certain things or prove beyond a doubt some of the answers we think we have. However, one such dilemma that intrigues me I wish to explore, research and explain to you in order to prove, scientifically, that the result I discover is factual. Beginning this exploration, I do not have any preconceived beliefs on what I perceive to be true and my only goal is to let science and the researched knowledge of others who are more qualified than myself to lead me to a conclusion of scientific fact. Welcome to my quest to discover: What exactly IS Pluto?
For the Warrior and Her Army
Recovery as a finished product is a beautiful thing… however, the process is all but that. It's messy, complicated, and although it brings freedom you will discover that you also have to set limitations and boundaries for yourself in order to maintain your freedom from your disorder.
10 Tips Toward Eating Disorder Recovery
If you're reading this, chances are you or someone you love has an eating disorder and you are looking to find some secret formula for a lasting recovery. Well, I hate to break it to you, but there is no set formula because every single person's journey is different and unique. That being said, there are some consistent markers that must be seen in someone's recovery to give them a fighting chance at complete freedom from their eating disorder. Here are a few things I've learned that helped me during the process of my recovery: