marie381uk
Bio
My Name is Marie, I write mainly poetry
I write subjects that I lean towards. No poetry by me, is related to me in any way unless I state it is. I have loved poetry from being 14 years old. Life is a poem grab a pen a tell your story xx
Stories (59/0)
Tears Of The Unloved
Is there No one to love me out there. Why I am unlovable, I feel All alone, yet we're still together I used to dream one day I would have it all. It's too late now. I see lovers walking hand in hand; I think, why not me. Why was I born to be unloved? I think it's like the great in the baby-making land, my egg was marked as a reject before I had a chance. Ugly and sad me. I have loved three times, yet in turn, each has rejected me. The unwanted the cursed egg. Some women have good looks, money, a man who adores. I crave love the point I could cry an Ocean, and drown in it. My first go at love was a disaster. So I tried again. The wrong move, unlike the first love, there weren't any punches, no abuse. So what went wrong? Life did. He grew tired of me. He withdrew his feelings and exchanged a passion for friendship. Kisses and the sex got replaced with cups of tea—a grandmother and grandfather relationship. At 49 years old No kisses, No love, just a toleration of each other. An empty life. The year's flew by. Now 12 years on. My third love makes it crystal clear I am his unwanted he tolerates me just. I was cursed before I was came into this land. Maybe I abused men in my past life, who knows. I can sit in a crowded room, all alone in deep thought. I never feel totally good enough. My weight has been the biggest issue in my life because when I was slim a size 10-12, the punches I took daily made me think just what the heck. He held me by my shoulders; then I was shaken until I admitted I was fat and ugly. He was a bully. I was 9st. I was 16 years old. I believed what seeds he planted in my mind. The seeds grew. I would eat and eat, my sadness too much of a cross to live with. At my best, I was nothing to him, so I told myself why not just admit he is right. I am the unwanted. I cry every night. I can be falling into a night of sleep, then the light in my mind goes on, and my eyes ping open. Is like two flood gates making way for the tears to escape. I yo-yo diet. I cook and buy good food, but one trigger food on my lips, sends messages to my brain to eat and console yourself, and enjoy. My sisters not thin, but also not fat, suppose in between is how to describe her. My brother isn't so why me. I know time is running out for me. The chances are this is as good as it will ever get. I have gorgeous clothing: perfumes and makeup. I focus on my eyes; they're the only beautiful thing I have. My home is clean and my palace. The area I live in has been the worst ever. People say Inside my house is beautiful, and I think it is cosy. I love cute things. I don't go out much. I Stopped driving in 2014. From moving to this house, I have suffered from ill health, and it started shortly after moving to this area it’s rough you see. Well, there are people worse off out there. My illnesses are depression, psoriasis and arthritis in both feet, knees, and hands, also shoulders. I long for; I crave for just to be someone’s everything.
By marie381uk 4 years ago in Humans
The Corona Virus
The corona deep fills many hearts with fear. I fear for myself, and those I love. The reason that I fear for myself is, I catch everything that's going. I had a theory, and until today I have kept to my self. So now let's throw the baby out with the bathwater. Corona Virus, I think it was man-made and said so last week. I think it was made to wipe out an enemy fast in a high power war of fast fat cats. It may have been aimed at those who fight. Somehow this virus hit out into the open air, and like a demon it shadowed and attacked it's the first victim, from there on it gained power, growing, travelling faster than Popeye could open a can of spinach. Maybe it was aimed to win a war, without dropping names only the slowest would not understand who and what I mean. No not made by America either. So now we sit do nothing but wait for a vaccine to end this horrible situation. We also need to remember panic buying, it will not save the next victim. It makes things a whole lot worse. Also, germs spread on things like shopping trolleys and door handles, along with money. This is ways this virus can and will attack. We need to now hope and pray like never before that a solution to kill this demon, is found faster than fast. We need to hope we will be lucky enough not to be in its grasp. Our government however also need to close our doors to people coming in from other countries fast. Protect us and our children. The virus is sneaky and fast-moving. As my dad used to say everything is written in stone, if our name is on it we get it. Anti back handwashes and toilet roll panic buying is just not going to be enough. Toilet rolls? Ok, our nose may run but out bums will stay clean yuk. yet we live in hope it tomorrow a solution will be found to stop and kill this killer bug. We can't run, we can not hide, however, we need to try and be alert to our actions, by that I mean make a safe plan and try to stick to it. No hugging people we meet or golden handshaking. Kissing is a no-no too. protect yourself. Nail down the hatches as our country and the world get ready for a tough ride. Someone in a science lab, Help us to find a solution to return this demon warrior back to where it was born. We can't see it as it grows and sneaks on us, but we can be aware Corona is a killer stay safe. We all fear it and it has arrived at the time of year when the common end of winter colds and viral infections are doing the end of winter run. We are told self-isolate for at least 14 days unless you experience breathing difficulties. I myself have a viral infection I caught from my daughter, she had been tested a just a normal winter viral bug. I am still very frightened of where this alone can go as I always end up with the chest infection bit of it. So I live in hope this time in two weeks or less I will be feeling better. My husband is now moving into our spare bedroom. One good thing is I get my big king-sized bed to myself yipee. What does he get stress free sleep with no snoring, I do this when I am ill. He does it every night ha
By marie381uk 4 years ago in Longevity
Big girls wanna look nice too
Oh well, a chance to tell the companies who make clothing for bigger ladies just how annoying they can be. See being a larger lady myself, I shop online and do not get me wrong, I am grateful for the choices. However, my real pent up anger is about to be set free. Here we go. Sexy items even though most do big sizes usually stop at 24/26 now this isn't good for ladies who want to look as good in a sexy red lace bra and knickers as their rival size 10-18’s do. Models Size 16 to 20 stand there on the web site which clearly advertises bigger fashionable clothing. So is it that the material they use is limited? So many times over the Christmas period I browsed and found that must have sexiness item on reducing prices must haves, only to click and see it only goes up to size 20 or 26 shameful. What is it if you are bigger than this your discounted? Also, don't get me started on selling big girls clothing on limited size models. Ok, a lady at work shows off her size 22 new sexy dress, she drops the name of where she purchased, says they sell size 16 to 36 sizes. Now you can't wait to go log in and it's an OMG moment. Yes I love it click here to order now! This item will arrive on your doorstep by 20th December 2019 yes. Err, click Again no, sorry fatty, we only go to a size 26. However, we have a few frumpy over 60’s tents left, one size fits all. Oh, also if you do get that dream item and your size 20 with a big belly and boobs, it arrives, you rip open the bag or box, run upstairs to try it on, and. Whoops, it's disgusting too clingy too tight. What do you expect the blooming models 16-20 your a 32/34 love? Send it back and glare at your co-worker, every time she wears that once longed for dream of yours. Knickers too, they don't escape my groan. You again spot a pack of 10 ok, big knickers, big knickers now Gloria is a size 18 they look perfect, so you gingerly check yes again your size 32/34. Selling out fast right-click click 2 packs on way. Wow at least if you have an accident you will be wearing ok knickers. No shame. They arrive up you go up to try a pair on, we'll they don't look as good as on the model but no one else but yourself, and the lady next door,as you hang out your washing on the clothesline will see them. Oh no halfway to ASDA and you feel it the roll. NO, the blooming knickers have come alive, and start to roll down off your bigger than a size 32/34 size belly, not good at all. You rush to loo, in Asda whip them off, and shop freestyle wild and free. The knickers hidden in your bag. Let’s hope you do not get stopped for a bag search On the way out. No one said they wouldn't fit you,as they did the model did they? No, they did not. So one pack returned and on in the knicker drawer, well the pack was opened, could not return as worn to Asda. So there you go moan over. A polite notice to sellers big is beautiful, but please show what a bigger girl will look like in the dam clothes. a similar-sized model please to the size on sale, as not all size 20’s items look the same on a 32/34. I now rest my case goodbye
By marie381uk 4 years ago in Styled
She
She has grown into a woman who knows her own mind. An intelligent, well read, well travelled Angel of our universe. Kind And loving to those who she takes under her wings. She is sympathetic loyal, and giving her all to those who need her help. Just another granddaughter to the reader. However to me she is the creation of love, given to my baby, my Daughter, her mother proud. She sets her goals high, but never out of reach. She is at one with the universe and its glory. She embraces challenges and drinks from the cup of knowledge leaving behind a sweet taste in the mouthes of her readers. She walks this earth pleasing her audience both near and Far. She has grown, and she continues to grow to new heights. She travels like a bird in the sky to places of wonder. People stop and look at her unbelievable talented beauty. She has gone far while going nowhere, and she will travel to many new and unknown lands, to her place of happiness and peace. Love will guide her always, for it was brought Here by my granddaughter to this earth, to this family, for a reason. She is love. Near and far she is followed by many. Who is she? She is my wonderful, gifted granddaughter. Long may she breathe her loving breath on our land, as she does on the hearts of her loved ones. She, who is she? to the world She, is a ambassador to so, women. Here to make our world a better place. I love her with all my heart ❤️The gift of beauty to all. Here eye’s see deep into the aura of our universe. She knows instantly where to go and how far. She write about life itself giving a breathtaking account of her life thoughts and actions. By the sea she sits on a wall her eyes wondering far beyond the depth of the ocean. Then like a unseen camera she turns what she focuses on to a picture on canvas, and expresses it into pure poetical beauty. Magazines interview her. They try to capture the world as she does. Her eye’s are bright like stars, and the moonlight that shine down on the earth, to embrace it's night with light. Other women crave her style, often they dress as she doe’s, they make up their faces to look like her and follow her. Men crave to spend time in her company. Men crave to own her. They love the sheer fact she can converse with ease on any level. They Want her. To her there is no bad in the world, for she built her life on happiness and warmth. its as if she is a soul, who has been and walked earths land many many times. No man can tie her down or look down on her. She will never be a slave to any Man. She knows men who want to posses her like a new toy. She is she. A child born from love, who lives in love and spreads her goodness to the audience. Her desk the stage her pen and ink the voice. The audience of all genders and all ages love her for what she is a strong woman. She who knows her mind and lots more than her year's could ever imagine. On Instagram her followers do so with much admiration. She is a seeker of knowledge and will never rest till her ink runs dry and her heart is filled to the top with all the good things she can show less fortunate. She stands and walks the walk for all men and women. She will leave a Mark on this earth long after she is gone. She is she strong and loyal and a credit to her self. long may she travel and write. Long may she serve her audience and be followed on social media I give you my darling.
By marie381uk 4 years ago in Families