Horror and self-help go hand in hand.
I had a reminder today, of that feeling of being young, and being at the pool, and (oh man, in hindsight how ungrateful I was) that feeling when your parent puts sunblock on you. If you’ve never experienced this, I am so sorry, you probably have a lot of trauma you need to work through. Are you in therapy? Well hey, I got sun-blocked, and still have trauma...but I bet yours is worse.