With the words you read here, I hope you find truths, inspiration, emotion, and the knowledge that you are not alone.
Dust fills my lungs as I pull the string connected to the access point in the hallway ceiling, opening the attic. Apparently, I say to myself, no one has been up here in years. I sighed, and remembering the reason for my presence here, I started climbing up the now unfolded ladder.
Im sorry, to have to tell you this, but I feel that it needs to be shared for day follows day and time moves forward
From the earth below to the sky above and even higher to the heavens, I call to the one the creator of all the connector of life.
The words attach and then dig deep into my soul until I become enticed to continue to write. I long for, rather crave more and more.
All together we sit we laugh and we tell stories of the past and memories shared the dreams in our hearts for hopes of the future
I feel raw and broken unmade on the deepest level In contemplation I dig deeper and deeper into myself breaking through walls
The Zen Chapter
Dear 2021, As I ended the strange year that was 2020, there were many lessons that I learned. The biggest was to keep going by doing the next right thing. There were many times where I wanted too much and wished too hard for an accomplishment that I did not work for on a consistent basis. Yes, there were times where my hope was restored and my passion ignited but they seemed few and far between.
Supposed to be
The poem below was written in an attempt to express my confusion. I was about to graduate from a Master's program, find a well paying job helping people, and start thinking about vacations and perhaps having children. That is, until I found myself as a new graduate with no job, no money, no husband, and no “american dream” future that was supposed to be mine.