With the words you read here, I hope you find truths, inspiration, emotion, and the knowledge that you are not alone.
Dear 2021, As I ended the strange year that was 2020, there were many lessons that I learned. The biggest was to keep going by doing the next right thing. There were many times where I wanted too much and wished too hard for an accomplishment that I did not work for on a consistent basis. Yes, there were times where my hope was restored and my passion ignited but they seemed few and far between.
The poem below was written in an attempt to express my confusion. I was about to graduate from a Master's program, find a well paying job helping people, and start thinking about vacations and perhaps having children. That is, until I found myself as a new graduate with no job, no money, no husband, and no “american dream” future that was supposed to be mine.
It is said that the future has many paths that the choice you may make today could change everything for tomorrow or the next week,
Everywhere I look I see them small reminders of a life before now a time before change sadness overtakes my heart and soul
It was the fairy tale ending to a magical beginning. Or so I thought. We were two people who met in college. We grew into a friendship, which then grew into a romance...
It has been awhile since a pen was in my hand writing out the words that have been trapped within It’s strange, this feeling
The life I want the one I feel called to the one I’m meant to live A purpose that I cannot stop thinking about cannot stop
My journey progresses and I feel raw and broken unmade on the deepest level I’m ripped apart to then be put back together