I've demonized luxury. I've demonized good things.
Dear people that used me to build a country,
Life in a black body is filled with involuntary stress.
I love finding myself in my own slice of Hollywood. I look out of my 3rd story window and see boundless oppurtunity. There is this fruitful Satsuma orange tree right under me, and it reminds me everyday how I picked this. I picked this version of reality. The 9-5 grind was not ripe for me, so I picked a life a little more out of reach. The endless oasis of sky is large and it seems like it just goes on forever. The sky meets my eye at the "horizon," or in my case, a collection of amazing apartments which face me. Have you ever seen an apartment building with balconies so perfectly placed that you can just imagine yourself sitting there? Just taking in the views, the sun, the nature, and allowing yourself to feel present in that moment. Connecting less to all the "human" problems and finding yourself in the beauty of now. These Hollywood skies have the ability to do that to you. Even if it is hypothetically on someone else's balcony. In Hollywood, everything just seems movie ready. No matter what kind of film is being shot. I can see the success story of a hood kid turned millionaire, and I can simply switch my gaze and see a mother of 2 who lost everything. It is all here. Anything can happen here, and anything can happen here. I see this one balcony across the way that looks really romantic. I wonder if I'm the only one that puts an imaginary version of himself in a dramatic love scene in every beautiful place he sees. I can see that balcony housing some amazing sunrises with kisses that last long and conversations that feel right.
How many days has it been?
I learned I could make music this year. I learned that I had been for a while and never respected my sound as musical.