Sitting in the corner of Sir’s room always gets my head going. He’s in the next room banging around, I can hear Him, but He told me to sit where I normally do in my corner in my waiting position—naked with my hands on my thighs palms facing down, head lowered, eyes to the floor, sitting on my feet with my legs slightly apart, of course with His collar on. I’m facing a wall. Why is it that I’m always facing a wall?
A drop of rain just hit my forehead. I pull the hood of my black sweater up to the edge of my face, tucking my light brown hair behind my ears so as to not get wet. I breathe deeply and pull my knees closer to my chest, resting my chin on the coarse material of my dark, blue jeans. I rock back onto my heels and stare at my broken, beat-up black Chuck Taylor's that I'm wearing without socks.
I can hear my breathing. I can feel the rise and fall of my chest. There's rope tied around my body, rising and falling in time with the expanding of my lungs, rubbing against my skin. But I can’t see, and I can’t move my mouth.
Submitting to someone is an extremely wonderful process of giving over aspects of your life that you used to control to someone that you trust. In the BDSM lifestyle as a submissive, being “owned” by a Dominant should be an wonderful event that makes you feel like you truly belong, not only in this lifestyle, but with your partner. I wrote an article entitled “I’ve Submitted to Him,” that you can read for more information on what submitting really means.
Hey again E/everyone! If you’re new to this series, SubSays, my name’s Lydia, an active submissive in my local BDSM community. I write to bring awareness to O/our lifestyle, encourage others to explore alternative means of relationships, and provide answers to kinky questions to the best of my ability. It was requested of me to produce the article mentioned in my last publication, “Ask a Submissive: Vol. 2” on the topic of behaviour modification. I’ll start by defining behavior modification, both in the BDSM world and in the vanilla world, including the definition, techniques and examples, then move into basic models of operant conditioning including positive and negative reinforcement, punishment, and extinction. Lastly I’ll dive right into how this all related to relationships and different D/s dynamics.