All experiences are my own. This post should NOT replace medical advice. The procedure and protocol may differ depending on location; all information is from my procedure in Ontario, Canada.
Disclaimer: This post mentions sexual activity. Themes discussed in this post may be triggering to those who have experienced abuse or assault. All thoughts, opinions and experiences are my own.
For many, the holidays are a time of love, joy and celebration. Filled with smiles, family, and good food. For me and many people with mental illness, it can be the worst time of year. Full of expectations, reflecting on the past year and having therapists on vacation.
For the sake of this article, I will be using she/her pronouns, but it is important to note that periods and menstruation occur in people of all different genders and pronouns.
It took me days and days to feel okay enough to publish this. I'm sitting at my desk, staring at my computer screen listening to the rain as I read this over and over and over again, debating whether or not to hit publish. I'm uncomfortable with the finality of hitting that button even though I know I need to do this. Not for you, or my family or my past; but for me, right now in this moment and for my future self. I need to let go of the fear and the control you have over me and have had over me since I was little. You don't control me anymoreand I refuse to let the thought of you stop me from living my life. I know I should have done this a long time ago but I'm proud of myself for feeling worth it enough to do it now. I'm done pretending nothing happened and secretly letting you tear me apart behind the closed doors of my mind. I'm done with it. I don't want you in my head anymore, and I will not let what you said and put me through stop me from becoming who I want and deserve to be.
This is not medical advice. All opinions in this article are based on personal experience and independent research. If you have any concerns about you or someone you know, please seek the appropriate supports.