A deep thinker who is always curious; sharing experiences and thoughts through stories and perspectives.
Ode to Spring
I've always had a long time love affair with Spring. There's something about the longer days, bluer skies, warmer weather, the scents getting sweeter, and flowers blooming that really remind me how beautiful life is. In ecology, it's been known as a time for mating between animals. The birds are singing, the foliage has the richest color, and it seems like it could be the most pleasant time of year.
It's been a while and it truly sucks to be away from the things you love. For me it's writing, among other things. I've had some intense life changes happening all year long. I've moved cross country and I'm readjusting to a familiar city. It's nostalgic and interesting to be home. A lot of people don't move back to their hometown once they leave. Statistically, 58 percent of people between 25-35 return to their hometown while ten percent will return after the age of 35. What normally makes people return? Family, community, familiarity, higher paying positions or lower living expenses. For me, it was almost all of the above.
There are so many things no one is talking about and so much no one feels they can address. I've had a few weeks of feeling blah. Work has been slow and I've been finding it harder to stay focused. A huge part of it is the state of our nation and the politics. Another huge part is finances and trying to figure out how to be successful while being creative. I have half a dozen projects going on and I keep running into roadblocks. While finding myself in this bizarre space, I'm also trusting that this too shall pass and it will all work out because it usually does, doesn't it?
Don't Give an Ugly Response
The world can be ugly, but that doesn't mean you have to be. It's no surprise we come across people on a regular that can be downright ugly. They could be having a bad day or they could be in a bad mood and sometimes they're just looking for people to take it out on. Our first response could be to respond in ugliness or to give them a dose of their own medicine. That's what honestly can feel natural to us. We want to show them how it feels.
You Were Not Created to Fail
You were NOT created to FAIL. I recently had a life changing experience. I had lateral ligament ankle surgery. I suffered so many ankle sprains I had stretched my ligaments beyond repair. I have been spraining my ankle once every other year since I was 12-years-old. I am an active person. I am a runner, a hiker, a dancer...it really took a toll on me and it was incredibly tough to make the decision to go through with surgery. Also, because I was afraid of losing my job. A job I didn't like but paid me a decent salary.
I recently made a shocking discovery. I had been doing so much soul searching and I've taken so much time for self-discovery that I realized I had been suppressing some deep-rooted feelings. I had been making all kinds of excuses as to why something couldn’t happen instead of giving myself a chance to just LET IT HAPPEN.
There Is No Competition
I remember being younger and just knowing I was different. I remember sometimes comparing myself to other people and wondering why I couldn't find more common ground. At one point or another in life we all go through it. We look for comforting comparisons rather than embracing our own uniqueness.
Trust the Process
I've always felt like such a late bloomer. Ever since I was a kid, I would observe my peers and my friends. I would see them excel at certain things I felt I was not able to easily get. I would see them getting those math problems, earning those awards, and nailing those grades. I would even see girls blooming into maturity, dating the cool guy, or just enjoying popularity. I realized I was definitely different and I learned at an early age to appreciate my individuality. Since "comparison is the thief of joy." I allowed myself to observe without envy. Also, my mother always made it clear that God gave me my own gifts and I would learn to appreciate them and utilize them as I got older and I believed her. This truth allowed me to start looking for my strengths early on so I could cultivate them.
Life Is Good
Life is not always good but when it is, I want you to know it. I'm finally admitting it. I'm admitting that life is good and I'm not just saying it because it feels like that's what I should say...I REALLY MEAN IT. Life is good right now. I've let so much time go by worrying about what was missing or what I wanted more out of life. I've stressed over my direction and how the rest of my peers seemed more settled than I did in so many aspects of their lives. Comparison is the thief of joy. There are so many aspects of my own life I was overlooking that were keeping me from enjoying it, mainly myself.
Too often we overlook our desires. We put off our dreams. We believe we have time. We postpone the things we've always wanted to do. We have doubts or simply don't have enough belief in ourselves. We weren't created to live a low-vibration life. Our body is our vehicle and we have to nourish it and attend to it the same way we would our mind, heart, and soul. Why stop there?
Give Thanks, That's the Secret
I have learned the ticket through life is gratitude. It's a shame we are not taught how to be grateful in school. Of all the subjects we are shown, I believe being grateful would be the most useful. It is hard to get through life without appreciation. Think of the dependency we have as human beings. From the moment we are formed we need the nutrients from our host, the body of our own mother just to survive. Once we are born, we need love, care, attention, touch, even air to sustain ourselves. But gratitude...that is what we often forget.