A lover of life...always thankful!
I recently lost my father. It's been the heaviest and most difficult experience I've ever had to face. You wish the world would stop and give you time to grieve but it won't. We live in a "Carry on" society and although I've had tons of support, I can't help but to feel like there's a long, lonely road ahead.
It's been a whirlwind of a year. Every year I feel like I'll be more equipped to handle life's challenges. Then I realize with a lot of effort and knowledge of self I am, but it's never easy. I've had so many times this year where I've felt defeated, purposeless, and just disappointed with where I am. I know these can be somewhat normal feelings as long as you're not stuck in this feeling; in believing this "norm" is where you belong.
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This one goes out to you. To the person who is trying to stay positive. To the person who is trying to make ends meet. To the single mom working doubles and overtime to provide for her kids. To the dad who was misjudged hoping to be granted visitation. To the person working long hours to prove themselves to a boss that keeps overlooking them. To the person who's been saving money to buy a car or put a deposit on a new place and something keeps coming up. To the lonely person who wishes they had a partner to be able to rely on. To the person who keeps fighting for their health day after day. To the person who feels like giving up. This one's for you.
Depression is attacking our generation. It's so easy to feel defeated. We can dread getting out of bed. Dread going to work at our jobs. Dread taking a long commute to get there or dread being around certain people. We can dread certain situations. Dread our obligations. There are a variety of situations that can make us completely unhappy. Especially if they seem to draw out for a long time.
We underestimate ourselves. We live in a society that conditions us to believe in something greater than ourselves. Sometimes it has an effect to believe in something bigger than us. It can give us hope. Sometimes we can feel so clouded with everything around us it can send a ripple through our minds that can make us feel defeated. It can be hard to discern the truth.
To go against the grain really feels like a rebellious term. Why would anyone want to go against the grain? To test the waters. To break out of normality. To deviate from the routine. To give yourself the opportunity to grow.
To be a mother has to be the greatest privilege. I know it's a lot of work, and probably the hardest job a woman will ever have, but I believe it is the most rewarding one.