Kalli Terrell (she/her)
The human experience through my personal lens.
Depiction of Our Derecho Summer
'Twas stormy weather brewing, August tenth Pandemic chaos simply not enough The inland straight-lines blew, derecho squall
Writing, photography, painting, creating. Meditation, burning sage, crystal healing, chakra cleansing. These and other coping skills, creative avenues, and spiritual awakening activities are great. They certainly have their place in feeling/releasing emotion, and can help people get through the day. However, what I have found is that in order to do them, I have to be feeling a certain amount of well already. I have to have the time and energy to put into these self-help activities and creative outlets.
From engine to caboose, the entirety of a train can be likened to that of our being. In life, there is a multitude of tracks we can take. Sometimes we meet other trains and follow their path for awhile. However, we possess the ability to make switches as we choose.
In my previous work, Love Through Adversity, I mentioned that I was adopted from a foreign county at the age of 6 months old and did not have information about my birth family. This short poem was written after I learned of a biological brother that I discovered as a result of a 23 and Me test. It touches on certain themes related to my experience including identity confusion, the unknown, intuition, and discovery. For reference, the composition of our intelligence is referred to as generalized intelligence. This is broken down into two categories: fluid and crystalized intelligence. Fluid intelligence is the ability to reason, think abstractly, and problem-solve. Whereas, crystalized intelligence is the cumulation of the knowledge that we have gained throughout life and experience. This piece provides an alternate, perhaps deeper meaning, to the phrase "crystallized intelligence." In this context, it is used to encompass the innate knowledge of kinship without needing prior evidence of its existence. It was a fun way for me to play with words and suggest that perhaps genetic code and/or heritage is a part of crystalized intelligence. Hope you enjoy!
This poetry collection is posted in response to my "Walking Triggered" story. It can be found by clicking here. Mariposas I used to think
The Truth About Suicidal Ideation (SI)
This story addresses suicidal ideation (SI) and my experience in counseling to diminish these thoughts. A secondary purpose is to provide introductory insight on a psychotherapy method that has worked well for me. It is not advocating suicide or self-harm as a solution to current struggles or mental anguish. If you feel unsafe with your thoughts, please feel free to contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255, or visit their website here for chat options.
Love through Adversity
When I was a child, other kids would ask me, “Who is your mom?” I would tell them about the woman who loved, cared, and provided for me.
Paralysis They say what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. I would like to revise that; what doesn't kill you, might gradually kill you.