January 15 -
Dear Diary - I had another argument with my husband. This time it was over me wanting to help my mom out. I am an only child and I want to create a burial fund for my mother to use when the time comes. My cousin, my mom, and me would pay into the fund. I told my husband I want to do this so I don't end up in the same situation as my cousin has with her father's passing. My husband hates for me to spend money, and trust me, he rarely lets me. It seems a bit lopsided as it seems he can take his friends to lunch, and buy various things without even telling me. Yet, I cannot buy a KitKat bar without asking him first, and God forbid I paid for a group of friends lunch. So, as not to do it behind his back I asked him if I could do this for my mom. He immediately said no. He said it is not my responsibility to take care of my mother. See, my husband is not close to his family so his view of this situation is a bit skewed. I explained to my husband as an only child I feel it does fall on me. My mother is not wealthy and my father wasn't wealthy when he passed. So, she doesn't have the means to do it herself. She is not well enough to still work, and is on disability too. He said it was all excuses, but if I wanted to be a door mat than go ahead and do it.
January 8th -
He's not talking to me again. Maybe he is bored. I also think he is battling depression again, too, and I am miserable as a result. He went on a cleaning spree without me home which is never good. I came home to mounds of clothes on the couch when I walked through the door. I knew what I was in for. The rest of the day will be crap. No hello or how was your day. He said I want those all folded and put away. I hate when he washes my clothes because he doesn't pay attention to how they should be washed or the mixing of colors. In fact, I have begged him not to wash my clothes, but when he gets like this he does not listen. I am grateful for the help. Don't get me wrong but walking in from a long day at work to a huge pile of clothes and him barking a command makes it feel like a punishment. The message was loud and clear. If I could learn to work all day and keep a perfect house, he would be happy. He does not say this. This is just how I feel. I am so sad and broken right now. I need some hope to hang on to.
When you are out of work and applying for job after job it can be exhausting. However, after applying for all those jobs and the job rejection emails begin to roll in that can be downright discouraging. You begin to think why the heck am I pouring my heart and soul into applying for these jobs just to get the dreaded rejection email. Ugh! Once this mindset starts to set in it can be hard, so here are some tips to help you turn those rejections into motivation.
People wonder if certain job search / interview tips still apply. This post is here to tell you that yes, some things are still relevant, such as the following.