I am now 43. Born and raised in Boise, Idaho.
Lived in Las Vegas since 1997.
Have 3 children, 2 are adults.
Mom of a child with ADHD.
Licensed massage therapist since 2003.
Married twice and divorced twice.
It has been about a week since we communicated. I am ridiculous lonely without his company. A face on a screen 5000 miles away was still better than absolutely nothing . Now I have nothing and no one. I was obviously completely naïve thinking I would just simply find someone else after 15 years with my husband. I thought I had found my someone else. It turned into something else.
I feel lost every day. I am still waiting to find myself after divorce and this period of uncertainty. I have all these boxes to sort through. I discover a different piece of the puzzle of my old life every time I sort though a box. I have no motivation to complete this task . It is difficult to see old things in a new place. I have all of the family photos. I guess he did not want to keep any around for a reminder. It hurts finding photos of us together. There were such high hopes of the future together. It was not meant to be.