24. No idea who I am. Just writing my way through it.
“Oy with the poodles already.”
When speaking amongst friends about what TV shows they watch I like to sit back and listen. I hear mentions of this and that, of whatever new Netflix-featured show there is, and then the room becomes silent. Everyone in unison turns to me and someone belts, “What are you watching right now, Bella?”. I usually try to avoid the answer, until I finally give up and admit to watching Gilmore Girls, again- for the fifth time. Groans always immediately fill the room.
Yeah I made a vision board and... IT WORKS SO FAR.
In the beginning days of the pandemic, specifically a month into sitting at home quarantined and watching “Love Island” obsessively, motivation finally struck. “I’m going to make a vision board,” I declared enthusiastically to my mom and sister, and ran into the garage to retrieve a box full of old magazines. Thanks to my OCD, I decided I wouldn’t begin without a plan and I scribbled -Venn diagram style - what I was hoping to highlight in my board. I was looking to get my health back on track (A.K.A. to me - lose weight), get my finances in order, become more career focused, and above all, be more positive. I clipped pictures from the magazines that spoke to me at the time. That day was the last time I thought about the board all year.
"Mr. Charlie, would you be my adopted Grandfather?"
A new owner just moved in to the home next-door to us, and from an earlier brief conversation with him, my parents found out that he was an elderly widower with no immediate family and his name was Charles Aplin. My parents came as immigrants to the United States and brought everything from their rich Polish culture along with them; everything, except our remaining family. As a child I was presented an opportunity, and I quickly learned that family doesn’t always have to be those who share your blood.
The First Step
Whatever your reason may be, whether it is pain, stress, suffering, sickness, or like most right now, trying to get through the trials we are facing as united humanity: this sentiment is aimed to alleviate some of this obstacle.
Social Media is the Culprit of Humanity
Heads bowed down, hands mirrored in unison, concentration not broken - no kids, I’m not talking about the Catholics kneeling in church. I’m referring to you, sitting on your phone. Oddly enough this soliloquy is being written by myself, a millennial and former social media/never-being-detached-from-my-phone addict. I too remember the never-ending and constant yearning of checking if Kim Kardashian really named her baby after a direction or congratulating Veronica (some girl I barely talked to from my 1st grade art class) and her engagement announcement. Even if I was in the middle of an in-person conversation, my mind would immediately falter when I heard the familiar ping of a notification. It was the same when I felt the buzz of my phone’s vibration - all concentration ceased to exist.
How to Not Hate Valentine's Day
As the fireworks of the new year are sparked and champagne bottles are popped, you can almost hear the rustling of grocery store shelves being switched to Valentine’s Day decor. Forget the fact that the holiday is almost a month and a half away, because it wouldn’t be "consumeristic" America if not for the over-promotion of holidays. With this loving season upon us, now is no better time than to take a closer look at the definition of Valentine’s Day:
All night I wandered Beyond the sheets of my bed Crawling through my head Drawing in Every little or large Feeling that passed through me.
The anger of her being was swept by the calamity of her love, Her love for him. She was refined While he was not.
Her Hands They reminded me of a time when things seemed better. Or rather, a time where things seemed easier. Each fine line and crevice,
Wink As your eyelashes close in an abrupt fashion, I show no repose with my undoubted passion. I live for your smiles,
Poem of the Day Clovers We picked clovers, three leaf clovers together. We looked for clovers, four leaf clovers together.