I am me Amanda Nissen/Champion
Just someone with a lot going on in her life, currently it's not as positive as my life usually is, but I am writing my way through it. After all nothing lasts forever..
I am hoping for more positive creations, and not true crime issues.
Someone called me in 2018, and had the voice of freedom, to me anyways. What do I mean by voice of freedom, well every time, since the 2011 evolution, the person whose voice I heard, is the voice of my reality. Therefore, when someone that wasn't the voice of that person came over, I didn't mind, since every time we spoke on the phone, he was still there.
The Size of Your lips changed
Please let me go Caleb, you are not here, and I don't want you to be. Not white and not black. I want home to come get me, so I can heal in an environment where nothing you showed me exists, the bad feelings don't exist either. I have never felt more alone, and you only kick me around in these dark days, after you broke my brain. I don't know what is real and what is not real anymore, that is why I demand I go where I know it's real. Where I know an XL male shirt, doesn't fit someone with my build.
The Sad Sequel
The owner is gone, the people occupying his house are trash. They steal things, go through things that aren't theirs, to go through. They have filled the house with chemicals, that no sober or clean person is safe around, along with cigarette smoke everywhere. In every room, these people will smoke, cross boundaries, all because they think this is all a sequel to some sick lie, they never lived and the fake death, proved it. These people who have been castes out of a place they never belonged in the first place, steal from the only one at this point, making it possible, these frauds even took my television remote, because although they do nothing, but harass and invade, as well as divide and conquer, anything and anyone that threatens there unwinding lie.
Trying to make sense of the things happening around me, as well as too me. I reach out to someone, who knows this place isn't safe. I mean he wont even come here, add in all the extra weird things that have developed, and there is no way the person I know, would believe I am safe. Plus who cares about anyone's opinion, me not feeling safe is enough, I don't need a co-signer for my feelings.
No Carbon Monoxide Detector
Well where should I start? As I have been very vocal about the living situations I have been forced into, this is beyond me. It is even crazier for one to believe I owe them money for gassing my room, stealing my meds, as well as things, and to be real, the list of problems here, just goes on and on.
Do You Want
This is a sad, but true story of false hope, isolation, disguises, lies, drugs, deceit, and more. While someone/as well as everyone on the side of town, I currently have to live in, apparently believes they are more important than any others, aren't they the ones who feel the least important in the bigger picture. With my last name being my maiden name legally now and literally mine only, I have a different type of security than what my married name came with, is what I have been shown. I still know it is a fraud, trying to get me to put the blame on anyone, but the obvious truth.
Music has always been apart of my life, and it is known. As for these newbies, who came around when I changed my name, are the same ones who have no idea about my life with my father alone. Let alone the music, they will be in for a surprise, when the lie they are living to scam the Government topples down on them. Call me a hurricane, because ever since I got here, no one has to work, and I am sure all needs are met, but are mine? What is the real reason you don' t have to work? Then to also scam the Government, dang, please let me be the hurricane in your lives.
Once a Thief
The story I am about to tell is a true one, sad, but still true. Emily, Holly, and Jenny were all 14, and grew up together, which makes the betrayal even worse. During a time when Emily's grandparents were in town, all the grown ups get together. Well the 3 of them wanted to go do what 14 year old girls do, go see boys in the apartment complex Emily lived in. Emily and Jenny were super close friends, (or Emily thought so anyway) even called each other cousins. Always there during hard times, Holly showed Emily a side of her that Emily didn't even know existed. A cruel side, knowing that at the time, Holly was Emily's only friend, she used it to her advantage everyday, and in the future part of this sad and true story, she remained the same as she was as a 14 year old bully, just grew into a 37 year old bully.
Hey, aren't we all
I connected with Natalie a lot more than I did, with the Jenny of the house or even the Hollie, as this person has a bug in its ear, it stated, "your going to get me kicked out of my own mothers house." Out of no where this is said by the wanna be Gunner, he was just repeating what was said to him in his ear, by the limb baby killer. She did it once, which is how I ended up where I am, dreading waking up. When I lived with Natalie, until I got hunted down by the poisoner, who was able to poison me one time, then she got kicked out.
On the brink of an emotional breakdown, due to the harassment I have been receiving from both ends of the spectrum, so I eliminated the ultimate problem from being able to enter my world in 2022, all to find it at the house where none of this child like behavior exists, but more a code of ethics, sadly today it was broken. Broken by a miserable little bitch who will never face me as herself, jumping in the faces that must have progress, if someone is here to ruin it.
When my Heart Cries
While I remain in a life that is not mine, with bad vibes and vibrations as long as my energy can feel, suddenly and often I will get aches in my heart. My heart is aching to be home with you, and the family we made. My heart can feel our baby's heart, and he is in pain often, I sometimes wonder if you feel it too, I don't think you do, because it is so excruciating that if you felt what I did, this division would end immediately.
Feeling helpless and sadder than ever before, Alice started wandering around lost, and on the other side of the mirror. Until her friends found her, to bring her back to their grid, or quarters, of the dark world, Alice was now a resident of, since her parents passing. Alice never knew about the dark world's different areas until now, and it depends on who you ask, about the different areas of the world behind the mirror. The evil part of the dark world was something Alice knew nothing about, after all she would just pop behind the mirror to see her friends, then pop back, but now this is her home.