I just started a new job as the kennel manager for an animal rescue group called Pawsafe. From the moment I met my boss and heard her talk about this rescue, I knew it was the right fit for me. I could hear the passion in her voice, and it sounded like what I at least think I sound like when I talk about helping animals. By the end of the interview, not only was I offered the job, but I also accepted it and immediately started brainstorming ideas for the kennel. However, as much as I love my job, and no matter how excited I am to be doing it, there are some hardships that come with working in animal rescue.
If you're anything like me, you had your whole life planned out as soon as you could talk. Okay, that's a bit of an exaggeration, but I've had my life planned out from a very early age. I knew exactly what I wanted, and I had a plan for how I was going to get there. I did whatever I needed to do to keep the end goal in sight, and when things didn't go as planned, I definitely got myself very worked up about it. However, as I got older, I started to realize that life doesn't have a plan. Things happen, plans change, and that's okay. As long as you still have your end goal, it doesn't matter how you get there. And sometimes the journey to your goal is more exciting when it's not what you had planned out.
It's after 1 AM on a Thursday night (I guess it's technically Friday now), and I'm still awake. No, I'm not drunk or doing work. I'm actually procrastinating all of my work if I'm being honest. No, right now I'm just sad. I couldn't tell you why, but I am. Not the scary or crazy kind of sad, just a little bit sad. And you now what? That's okay.
Finding a good match, especially in terms of a relationship is hard. Trust me, I've had my fair share of bad relationships, but I've also had good ones. The bad ones were bad for a plethora of reasons, but the good ones were good because of good communication and honesty. Those are, truthfully, two of the best things to have in a relationship. If you don't feel comfortable enough to honestly talk to the person you are with, then what's the point?
We've all been there. You wake up and can just tell, "Today is NOT going to be my day." As the day goes on, you're constantly reminded of that idea you had as soon as you woke up, and it just seems like nothing else can go wrong. Finally, you get home, and you rehash the details of your day. This is when it becomes important to remember one very important fact: It was just a bad day, not a bad life.
I didn't even know I was still hurting. I thought I had moved on, and everything was back to normal. I was going back to my life before the damage was done, and I didn't even think about him anymore. As it turns out, I was still broken, and I needed a little extra help healing.