What is pride? What does it mean to have pride? Sometimes you can feel like a non prideful person. There might be pride within, but pride seems like an association with the people you’re surrounded by. Its natural to feel overshadowed by the amount of pride that you are exposed to. This allows other ways to express yourself. I appreciate so many people that are able to show their pride in whatever way they do.
The art of inspiration isn’t always easy to come by. Inspiration can come from unknown places. From nature to watching something, in reality, can light the smallest spark. Sitting while staring at the monitor in hopes of inspiration strikes just to trigger thoughts & past experiences is like trying to remember what you ate last month at the restaurant you last visited.
Birds chirping with happiness & glee. On a Sunday morning where the weather is chill & winds blowing in to remind you that its not summer yet but it will be warm enough for short. Cars pass by as if in rush hour to get to their destination. A loud noise emerges, The sounds of a skateboard gliding down the street but its not a skateboard but a scooter big enough to carry luggage. On the floor tilted with a woman wearing a black jacket & a mask laying on the floor. Her left leg bent as she laid on the middle of a cross section. Helmet still on as she tries to catch her breath.
A swirl in the pit of the stomach manifests. A simple day of joy & productivity can easily change into a dark cloud of thunder & shower. I take a breather & lay as if I were to meditate. I look deep within myself & reminisce. Questions that usually pop are ones that unnecessarily define who I am. These questions don't describe who you've become, but help understand what you have to offer. What you give to yourself is to be the best version of who you are.
Memories of the past rise as I travel onward. Moments of happy times remind me of how it used to be. Streaming sites update and what's seen is what I used to grow up with. The programs that use to be on the tv boxes that always had me adjust my life to where I would catch it in its time slot. The temporary separation from the world was more than a disconnect but a way of learning. Learning that gave a different perspective then what was presented. I scroll through Netflix to see it all, Xena: the Warrior Princess, Charmed, Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Pieces of my generation collected together for those to binge-watch.
Awake to a place of my own. The idea of adulthood rushes to my head. Living in your own space, not being tied down by a group or a tether like family. Being an adult comes with its own struggles but having the responsibility of your own & the power of individuality allows for self-growth and a form of existence in this world.