So let me just say this, I am doing a lot better. And thankfully, it wasn't COVID. But it scared the shit out of me. Why lie about it. The feeling that took over me was resentment and anger. Mainly toward society and the people who know better and think they above everyone else. Because the experience of getting sick during this era is the worst feeling and the most tedious process that I have ever experienced in my life, the truth is I am not one to brag to people about going to med school and choosing to drop out by choice. The first stereotype that I got in my life was that I dropped out of Med School because I wasn't cut out for it. That I wasn't smart to complete medical school. When I talk about the real reason, the politics, and the fact that when you're in med school and coming from a low-income family, med students, if they don't get scholarships, are typically in debt their entire lives, which leaving med school because of my reasons, I was deemed stupid and foolish to my family. "Why did you spend all that time and waste that money," I was told time and time again. Well, truth is said, the smartest thing I ever did was using the money I gained from modeling to pay that entire debt off. Which is another stereotype that I always get in a critical idealism is "You modeled?" Some see it as I am lying to "impress" or gain acceptance from people, and some just say straight up, "You're an ugly fat bitch." And regardless if I was fit at one point, too many people, I am and always be "a fat ugly bitch." Which truth is I don't take the offensive and personally. Because as they say, "misery loves company." And that resentment and that hate that people have towards other people comes from a place of pain and insecurity.
“I can’t believe we almost got caught,” Matthew said as he slammed the door to his home.
“You think we are going to get caught,” Able said.
“Hey man, what are you doing,” Jacob said as he turned left at the signal light.
“Just watching TV,” Natalie said over the phone.
“No. Stop. Please stop. Noooo,” Frank said as he opened his eye swinging, which followed with an agonizing groan. He opened his eye to see two police officers standing over his bed as he looked up from the lying position. As he ended up attempting to lift his arm, he heard the clang of his handcuff that secured his left hand to the rail.
Human Psychology has shown that everyone is mapped differently based on the things we experience in life. In many cases, those who experience trauma in life are the ones that end up suffering the most. In many cases, people avoid idealism, as people live in denial to prevent the things that replay in their heads, suppressing the nightmares that haunt them of these internalized events. But we aren't talking about the traumas that you are thinking about. As trauma out of our control are what I am referring to as car crashes and accidents, people experience common trauma that keeps people in subtle fear. However, in a situation where trauma is an ongoing occurrence starting in childhood. Where those who prey on the vulnerable to cope with the internalized fears of feeling powerless. Inducing trauma to those around them and preying on the weaker.