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Sometimes the Wrong Things Feel Good
I never realized how prohibited things felt until I kissed a married man. How can something wrong feel like bouncing on clouds? Am I ashamed? Well, it was raining tears from my eyes after it happened. Maybe it's because a married man sees me as the most beautiful flower in the universe and my husband sees nothing when he looks at me, he never cared to continue making the flame high. The funny thing is that if he found out about the kiss, he would become a monster; while I still became his best friend when he slept with other women.
Friendships exist between opposite sex too.
My neighbor is always watching me from her window, the look of excitement that she has on her face whenever she sees me with guys just is hilarious. You see, my neighbor is one that we call nosy, she assumes things based on what she sees. My other neighbor who goes to school with me said she heard my nosy neighbor say that I am a slut. This is because she sees me with a different guy outside my house. It’s sad that a girl can’t have any guy friends because it looks weird or is hard to accept.
Causes and Solutions to Malnutrition
Note: This article was originally published on SnoQap When we hear the word malnutrition, a lot of things come to mind. Malnutrition could be someone with anorexia, someone with a history of alcohol abuse, or someone with obesity. Malnutrition does not only apply to people who are underweight but also to people who are overweight. Sometimes there is this misunderstanding that malnutrition means a lack of food; this is not entirely true. Malnutrition is when you are not getting the proper amount of nutrients in your body. Ending malnutrition can be difficult to do because sometimes people are in denial; this creates huge health problems. A healthy person might say to someone who is overweight that they need to eat healthily and their response to that may be that they feel happy with how they look. This type of response could be a genuine response; perhaps they are happy not being skinny, but it could also mean that they are just not willing to be consistent in having a healthy eating plan. Observe people who are financially stable, people who are living in poverty, and people who suffer from alcohol abuse, they all need help with bettering their eating habits. Thus, the solution to malnutrition needs to address every form it comes in to be effective for everyone.
Trying to Move On
Ambrose cheated on me. My boyfriend of three years was calling another girl his beautiful rose while pretending to love me. My heart turns into a fire every time I remember how I found out; my eyes start to rain because I just think about how I did so much for him and he still decided to betray me. When we first dated we told each other the things that do not sit well with us. He told me he wasn’t into girls who drink alcohol even after I explained to him that just because I drink it doesn’t mean I’m throwing away my life. My drinking won’t lead me to ignore my goals and responsibilities, but still, he didn’t care. All he kept telling me is he didn’t like it. And I considered his feelings and stopped. For three years straight I didn’t accept anyone offering me a drink. I missed drinking wine, but for him, I chose not to drink it. It has been four months since I ended my relationship with him, and I still haven’t bothered with getting drunk or having one small drink. It’s like I’m still considering how he feels even though he is no longer in my life. Imagine being pure and then you meet this guy and you tell him your favorite color, that you only mess with paperback books, that you love the smell of roses, you also share with him secrets you never told anyone, not even your best friend, and you feel like being with him is like jumping on clouds. But that feeling of jumping on the clouds and getting goosebumps when you’re with that person disappears after you come to the realization that the feeling from him was not mutual and instead of being direct with you he chooses to love another girl and makes her feel beyond special. I gave myself completely, believing I would never go through this. He was the first guy I ever gave myself to because he gave me the reassurance of never looking for someone else, but something I learned is even when a guy tells you not to worry so many times, even when he says to you that it is you who is his princess, he will still go ahead and be making another girl moan his name. Did making love with me feel empty? Did he feel like he was in the deep water while being with me? Why did he cheat when he could’ve just told me he felt nothing for me anymore? I hate being stuck on it, I hate being stuck on something that makes me sit in the bathtub and cry for so long while the hot water is pouring down on me. I’m thinking of a video on Tik Tok I’ve seen where a girl talks about how a boy can view you as a school, which means that boys are aware of how they should treat their girl, they understand them, but they choose to treat the next girl in their lives better. Why in the world couldn’t he just focus on me? Why is love only meaningful in the beginning? There is a line in the movie The Incredibles, that says “I never look back darling, it distracts from the now,” but I do want to look back, I want to look back and be able to move on. I want to accept what happened and not feel like a firefly without any light because despite Ambrose betraying me, I need to remind myself that I can still flourish and have a crown on my head.