The phrase “nervous breakdown” is an old one. In fact, it’s so outdated that it conjures up an image of a beautifully dressed woman from the 1920s. She holds the back of her hand to her head as she collapses gracefully onto her claret fainting couch. All choreographed to classical music coming from a Victrola in the corner of the room.
It’s not looking great at the minute, is it? The world has descended into a dystopian Hades and people are turning on each other like the plastics. Half the world has shut down because of Covid, and the other half is trying to pretend it doesn’t exist. Lives, jobs and hopes have been lost. People are angry, frightened, and they’re taking it out on each other. There are 2 phrases I can’t stand right now, one is “The new normal.” The other is, “We’re all in this together,” because we’re not. We should be, but we’re not. A worrying amount of people are out for themselves and have lost every single iota of compassion for their fellow human beings.
For those of you who don’t know, our van “adventure” started in March, and for those of you who are interested, it came to a screeching halt in August. Now I know that 6 months isn’t a long time, but there were times when it fucking felt like it.
So we’re merrily rolling along in somewhere called “Whaley Bridge” about a fortnight ago when BAM! The exhaust fell off. As you can imagine, that isn’t going to be free to fix. The RAC patrol worker was great and did a temporary fix. But it needs to be done permanently. And guess what, we have no idea how much it is going to cost! And guess what else, we’re not exactly rolling in it right now. I’m used to living on a fairly tight budget. I’m one of five children and my mum raised us on one wage. So budgeting is something I’m fairly familiar with. But budgeting in a van is a whole different ball game. Yes, you have fewer outgoings. But you also have fewer incomings unless you’re working full time. So I thought I’d make a budget in case anyone was in the same or similar situation to us.
More people than ever are having money worries. People have been let go, made redundant or furloughed. They’re struggling to pay their rent and are worried about how they will survive. This will naturally cause massive amounts of stress.
Having a family member who is addicted to anything can be incredibly difficult. You have to sit back and watch someone you love make decisions that you don’t think are the best for them. And the whole time you feel completely helpless.