So, you have a job interview coming up and are concerned about a urine test because of your recreational activities. Or maybe your current occupation does random testing, but you shared a joint with a friend at a birthday party and now are anxious that it could pop up.
Most little girls dream about extravagant weddings, with an array of flowers and fireworks and fancy decorations. Then we get older and wedding bells are around the corner, with Pinterest throwing in your face color schemes and satin dresses and ten inch heels. You open your bank account and feel like slamming your head into a wall, wondering, How the hell are we going to pay for all of this?
I was 18, stuck in a seedy bus station in an unfamiliar town trying to get back to my base during a snow storm. I knew nobody there, but made pointed eye contact with a few other tired servicemen laying on their green duffel bags. It made me feel less alone.
Spell ‘promise’ with your tongue against mine
Take my last breath
so I don’t know it’s a lie
Destroy me in this moment of bliss
So every twisted memory of you I can cherish
I beg you,
Deny my worst fears as being real
If you ever cared, don’t allow me to feel
This. This gnawing ache.
I can’t tell if this drowning is wrong
Please just let me know where I belong
Caress my wrist with the jagged edge
of our broken dreams
and I’ll excite you once more with the pain from my screams
My love locked, but you’ll forever hold the key
Swing life away without me