I don't know about you, but my music taste is a bit all over the place. I guess this is fitting really, as so is my head and generally my emotions too. Music is one of the ways I tend to express and control my emotions, as the "story" in the song tends to change the way I feel. I think this is useful as a coping mechanism, as it allows you to cheer yourself up or get a little of the bad out in a healthy way. Anywhoozles, here's my list. I'll try to keep it mostly positive.
"He's probably dead. You should be happy."
This is a bit of a personal rant, I'll admit. I'm a National Health Service (NHS) patient. For those of you not in the UK, it is run by the government which was created to ensure that healthcare was available to everyone, regardless of financial circumstance. The NHS has been slowly declining in its quality and reliability over the last few years under the current government, but that's a different story entirely. I want to talk about depending on the NHS when you have a mental illness, well, my own experiences of it.
A mental health crisis may consist of extreme anxiety, depression or feeling suicidal. For me, it's generally a mix of all three. This results in a rush of energy, feeling like I can't keep still or think straight, feeling like I can't breathe or am drowning and just utter terror that this is the beginning and things are about to get so, so much worse.
Originally I was going to write a descriptive article, filled with psychiatrist jargon and lists. Lists of symptoms which without ticking certain boxes, you'll never get as far as a diagnosis.
Anxiety is one of those things that are almost impossible to understand if you've never experienced it yourself. No matter how many times you try to explain what anxiety feels like to a loved one, it is unlikely they will ever really 'get it'.