Avril Jane Barker
I love writing poetry! Initially just for me, a cathartic exercise where I could express my feelings safely. Now I share my work: my goal to write for a living so I write, avidly, knowing the only way I will become a writer is if I write.
My bestie, my partner in crime, my sister from another mister, the other pea in my pod
Dearest Rach I wanted you to know I look at my tattoo every day and think of you, although you are on the other side of the world now I know you are always there for me and when I look at the heart on my finger, I smile where ever I am and my heart swells with love.
Mindful Walking for Beginners
Hello, and welcome to today’s walk, my name is Avril, and this is mindful walking for beginners. Today I will guide you through some mindfulness techniques while we walk and also explain a bit more about what mindfulness is and how it will improve your life.
Men Are Always Interested When I Tell Them I’m Bi!
I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder about 14 years ago and I must admit, it was a relief to know there was something wrong with me, something tangible I could label, a way to understand the inner turmoil; it felt good to know other people were like me too, it felt good to know there was a reason (chemical imbalance I was told). Before the diagnosis, I just thought I was fucking crazy and was too scared to tell people the real truth, the ups and downs and sometimes the daily mood swings which totally controlled me. I hid it all out of fear. Fear that people would not understand. I knew something from quite a young age; I knew I was different in some way.
Dead inside Blood is pumping through my veins I am alive But I am dead inside I am walking but I am not connected
The Longest Week
A compulsion to write this The grief fills me and I need to make space Write it away Push out the pain and let light back in
The day I met the Cinnabar Butterfly was an extraordinary summers day in North Yorkshire. After being couped up for too long with the COVID-19 lockdown, I decided to walk the 20 minutes or so to one of my local parks. At this stage in the lockdown people were only just allowed to have unlimited exercise time so I planned to spend the whole day there and make the most of the glorious weather. I also knew I needed to reconnect with nature in a big way. City dwelling is great for convenience and the modern lifestyle but for me there is nothing more fulfilling than walking barefoot in grass and hugging a tree. That was my mission for the day – I had nothing else to do and nowhere else to be.
To a City of Sanctuary
Refugees seeking refuge Asylum Seekers seeking asylum Over mountains and deserts Over rivers and seas You seek somewhere
An abundance of Joy
An abundance of joy in the simplest things Every second, every minute, every hour of every day I seek and find joy in the tiniest way